i prayed for everything to last forever but they're all fading away, slowly.
1st=uwan(grandma)
2nd= pak long(1st uncle)
3rd= alang(cousin)
4th= ayah pasoh(uncle-in-law)
5th= atok(grandpa)

i dont know what will happen ahead, theres no one we will visit. the kampong now will be empty.i really cant get over it but i still have to let him go. im missing him right now, forever. why must the evil do that to them(the bold)?!! ahhh fuck themlah. im scared that they had enuf, after along disapperance, they will come back & take my mom. oh god! kay nvmind, i know. people come & go in our life.

same goes for others. i do love & care for my them, but they dontknow. i know i troubled them alot, until they become the victims and so on. i really miss them. i think i should say that now because i really do & this is serios.i miss aan,aishah,ayit,cincau,eddy,fadhli,feeza,huzi,kash,kin,nani,naz,shirah,zack, all my classmates, old friends & some others too. some have walkout from my life, some stay, but some, i walked from their life. i tried twice,trice from ayit, but he still want to stay. i tried once from eddy. but i regret kay, bodo kay fatenn. i really dont know what to do. im out of sadness, you see. i really do love him, but he dont(not sure).hahs! when i need him on that one only dy, he not with me.u dont care to msg me.u accept my decision.this time i really miss him. but fuck, my faultlahh. i want to stayon with him, you see.

oh jyea. just now, my atok(dad's side) come & attack dad. ohh wth, its only past 2dys , the news drive us to sorrow. & now, another problem. one attack from mom's side. another attack from dad's side. fair kahhh pa people?!!!! =.= i really dont understand. why must always be my family?!! hine sgtkah family ak nie ?!!!! erghhhh ! ahhhh bullshits them.

oh people. results will be out thurs(24012008). suke kahhh pa?!! =.= pantat, ak dont look-forward sey.i hope mom able to come back by weds. i want her to be by my sidelahhh. insyallah! i hope i will get gdresults. this is the only way i can show my dad's side that their perspective towards my family is WRONG!!! i thought this yr will be the same people comforting me which is shirah but we're not close. how?!! & ohhh, i thought of sharing my result(bad or good?idk.) with eddy but haiya. tkpala, im not impt in his life anymore now. i hope the best for myresults, pleaseeeee god!!