song that ive just put up as my music in this blog is really fuckinnggg nice siols. maybe people not interested in indonesia songs like i do, its okay. you guys should listen to it kay,full. actually, this song is meant for someone special. this song is related lahh sial to my life, somelike.hahs ! i hope he will not say NO! oh please. gagagaaa ! you people should watch this show. ok dumb !

i prayed for everything to last forever but they're all fading away, slowly.
1st=uwan(grandma)
2nd= pak long(1st uncle)
3rd= alang(cousin)
4th= ayah pasoh(uncle-in-law)
5th= atok(grandpa)

i dont know what will happen ahead, theres no one we will visit. the kampong now will be empty.i really cant get over it but i still have to let him go. im missing him right now, forever. why must the evil do that to them(the bold)?!! ahhh fuck themlah. im scared that they had enuf, after along disapperance, they will come back & take my mom. oh god! kay nvmind, i know. people come & go in our life.

same goes for others. i do love & care for my them, but they dontknow. i know i troubled them alot, until they become the victims and so on. i really miss them. i think i should say that now because i really do & this is serios.i miss aan,aishah,ayit,cincau,eddy,fadhli,feeza,huzi,kash,kin,nani,naz,shirah,zack, all my classmates, old friends & some others too. some have walkout from my life, some stay, but some, i walked from their life. i tried twice,trice from ayit, but he still want to stay. i tried once from eddy. but i regret kay, bodo kay fatenn. i really dont know what to do. im out of sadness, you see. i really do love him, but he dont(not sure).hahs! when i need him on that one only dy, he not with me.u dont care to msg me.u accept my decision.this time i really miss him. but fuck, my faultlahh. i want to stayon with him, you see.

oh jyea. just now, my atok(dad's side) come & attack dad. ohh wth, its only past 2dys , the news drive us to sorrow. & now, another problem. one attack from mom's side. another attack from dad's side. fair kahhh pa people?!!!! =.= i really dont understand. why must always be my family?!! hine sgtkah family ak nie ?!!!! erghhhh ! ahhhh bullshits them.

oh people. results will be out thurs(24012008). suke kahhh pa?!! =.= pantat, ak dont look-forward sey.i hope mom able to come back by weds. i want her to be by my sidelahhh. insyallah! i hope i will get gdresults. this is the only way i can show my dad's side that their perspective towards my family is WRONG!!! i thought this yr will be the same people comforting me which is shirah but we're not close. how?!! & ohhh, i thought of sharing my result(bad or good?idk.) with eddy but haiya. tkpala, im not impt in his life anymore now. i hope the best for myresults, pleaseeeee god!!

i took an immediate leave just now, im away for fewdys or fewwks maybe? im scared,actually. i am right now. for my loves one, sorry i didnt inform u guys.soooo sorry, im in rush, but anything just beep my hp. for the meantime, i just want to be with my family and cousins.
dy,kash & kin, u tc yeah. dy, since tmrw u off go help ur brother or enjoy kay.
to shirah, i thought of meeting u one of the dy in this week to give something to you. but i have to postponed it to another wk. kay, bye.

im working right now!haiya, so borring lahh!
boring+sleepy=fucking tired.lol.

actually, i got alot of thing to say but not right now. maybe other dys,weekends kay?!
gtg.lol.

don't give hope if u ain't sure with your feelings.
i stay up late just to wait for your msg although im sooo beat off after work. & let me tell you this b. i really cant sleep ystd though you tell me the reason why you in no mood. fuck kayy! haiya, dots! love you nomatter whatlahh baby. i hope you do too. KAY LOLS.

kash & cincau, thanks for being there for me ystd. i love you two alots! kin, sooo sorry cant go to kash's house. im gg outs ! at last what i wish, is gg to happen today! FAMILY SHOPPING !!! been one yr plus we last did that. lets say enjoice ! yaaaaaaaaaaay!ohhhh chikemama lalala!!!

ohhh, mata ak boleh jadi keroh siols lame-lame later.hahaha!my work mostly related to books number, ahhh idk how to say it lahkan. many numbers makes my head go spinningspinning. haiya, i like this work but sitting down for many hours will be tiring too. im supposed to finish up my work(3/4 left,hahs!) but i was tooooo sleepy.kak nora unable to come to work, sooo boring! so i decided to go blogging right now. hehs! shhhh, dont tell anyone. ahhh, lame!

little little notes for some people. firstly, dan & syawal. soooooo sorry cant reply or msg u guys cos my ppd low & now, actually, i aldy topuplahh but i have to save for more impt things.hope u guys understand. secondly, kash&kin sooo sorry cant be with u guys. im working & i promised when i got my first pay, i treat u guys kay.love you two babes kay, remember that only.thirdly, i hope kash&kin able to accompany me go shopping when my bursary has cheque in lahhkann, hohoho!

ohh not to forgetkan, happy birthday to JAYSON && AIDIL.!!

now, im soooo worried for my results though i do the papers with my heart & soul.hahaha, kaay fuck!