i know i hurt you many time this month.
i dont know what comes over me this few days.
im truly sorry, baby! :(

i really didnt meant it.
baby, remember.
i love only you, always & alot !

im so grateful to God for giving someone sooooo special like you. :)


btw, school days have been ok for me.
minus the fact that i got 2 projects to handup tmr.
anw, im taking MANDARIN for my elective!!!!


ANW.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY! YOUR MUMMY !



days have becoming better & gereks!
except for saturday?
argggh i dont care anymore. & i dont want to talk about it anymore.
hehs !
anw, just come back from gf's hz.
im supposed to back home at about 2 plus?
but i decided to go to gf's hz & lepak.
didnt expect that gf kin gonna be there too.

ive been making those dirty sound from the ass.
gfs been doing those too.
& they blame me because i started it ferst
we went crazy with the names, sounds,hair etc.
wild,nonstop laugh from afternoon till night.
i love today!
tmrw meeting up with kash again. :D

anw, about school just now.
ferst day of semester!
i got no mood to go school but have to drag myself no matter what.
one module can drive me crazy.
i have to write 1500words essay(waliao!) ! wth kans?! -.-
nemmind, i do my best go faten nasyitah! HAHAHAHAHHA!

oh aku ingin melompat tinggi!
boyfriend coming back home. :p
i cant wait to meet him. when will it be baby ? ;]


i swear i hate her for now!
if she want a respect from me, she have to respect me too.
she scratch my both arms! & its bleeding!
scratches all over my arms.
she broke my soccer table! sials !
& they!
have been siding her all the time.
padehal, it was so obvious her fault!
yeah, although i start the talking first.
but she start to be rough ferst lor!
i cried not because aku kental or cembeng k.
i cried because i hate fightings!
you dont know that, f !

i always been wanted to run away from home.
but..
lucky tmrw im gg to school.
i dont have to see her faceeee.
& i dont care what mom gonna say.
im gonna stay in school until night maybe?alone!
now, i dont feel like talking to anyone.everyone!

damn mom!
she's the best right?
im not! im always the bad in everyones' eyees.

btw,thanks to boyfriend for the cd.
the show make me laugh & smile back.
i need him badly! :'(


such a bored day today.
helped mom with the wrapping for some event, sleeping,eating,sort out with my new school timetable. note: school-reopen next wk la sial !
now, trying to concentrate on my el. shit !
exam for it is drawing near & my el still sucks. -.-
im still not sure if i could pass this year not.
hey anyone want to study with me? teach me anyone!

ohh yesterdaykans.
i did go to sham's hz.
i didnt expect that i went out raya with the people idk except for fews.
overall, its fun !
especially the people who took the car with me.
they're CRAZY!
& hafizmatnoh can cocky with me at every hz we go.
everything end at 2?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA!
my 1st time to go home that late during raya.
i hope im able to go out with u guys agaen one day? ;p
btw, once i get the photos from whoever, ill upload yo!

k im off to study el.
maybe hor. -________-"


i woke up early this morning to send boyfriend to bintan.
not really send, but see him leaving me.
so shakir fetch me at tanah merah & off we go to tanah merah ferry terminal.
im able to talk with boyfriend for like few mins ONLY!.
its sad to see him leaving me alone.
MY 1ST TIME LOR!1wk sial! no contact!

kakbit's cry just now make me want to cry too.
aku maner bole tengok org nanges.(aku mcm mak aku jugak!anak mak!)
hahahaha! but lucky i can tahan.
when they lining up to the departure hall thingy, i,shakir&their parents was like smiling & all.
shakir disturb me, busted!
f:"aper kir, tgk2 aku!"
s:"kau tak nanges pe?(evil laugh)"
f:"takla se. mater sebelah aku nie mmg airmata suke kuarla.tk caye tnye acap"
s:"(evil laugh again!)mi, tgk diye mi"
wth him!
he kept watching me to see whether i cry not.& i dont!
HAHAHA!
but truly,i dont dare to look at boyfriend or wave him :'(

after that i head home, feeling bored right now.
im missing boyfriend.
im gonna miss alot about him.
his talking,laughing,majok-ing,pitching,biting(not love-bitelaa ok hor!haiyo!).
:( what to do he have to go!
i need something to occupy my empty-ness during this 1 week.
boyfriend come back soon!

to kakbit,ayul & the rest of the silat team(dont really know their name!), wish u guys all best.

i had enuf,alot of food ystd during raye. from one house to house.
update the photo once i got it yo!
ok, now im off to sham house.
filling my empty stomach with all her mom's cooking!
yummmmmmmmmmmmmmy! :p





1st day of hari raya been celebrated at kampung,my childhood village.
it will happened every year.
eat ketupat-s,rendang-s,lontong-s etc.
but this year, i find it boring.
if my grandparents still alive, everyone will be back home few days before raya.
we will play mercun,bunga api. we will challenged other kids from our village.
the makciks muda will be shouting,jumping like clown.then,crying will be heard from my niece/nephew.
sounds fun right?hahaha.
but this year, it doesnt happened to be the same like the past few years.
sad lor. :(

i hope my future hari raya wont be like this hor. :D
hahahahaha!

today will be second day, hari raya-ing in spore.
fyi,been 1 week not meeting boyfriend, few weeeks for gfs.
missing them so much.
on another note,boyfriend will be gg bintan for 1wk on wed.
what does this mean!?!!!
im not able to eat ljs with him lah. -___________-"
insyallah i send u ok, baby !


ohh yeah,did video call with boyfriend ystd. HAHAHA-HAHA!
& during videocall-ing, i dont feel like talking but instead,
i want to keep myself quiet & look at his face only.
HEHS!

so today, family will be trying to finish up all cousins' visit.
afternoon&tonight, abg wan's family & boyfriend's family coming.
say yay ! :D





p.s next week school re-opens, booooooooooooriiiiiiiiiiing!