thetasteoflove

2010-03-15T11:45:00.001+08:00

Driving lesson at 1230pm.

2010-03-14T00:27:00.003+08:00

BERAMBUS.

What is the meaning of berambus, people? Do help me in defining it. Cause for me, berambus is a malay word whereby you ask someone to get out of your life.

Isn't that true? Yes, I'm sure.

You like when anyone post you that words?

2010-03-11T23:04:00.002+08:00

Wish.

I wish that I could fly my aeroplane again. I wish I could fly a big kite with Bonbonboy like we did before. I wish I could get a jeans. I wish I could go out with that guy one dayy again. I wish I could tell him how much I miss that guy. And I wish and I wish...

2010-03-09T21:30:00.004+08:00

JOB-HUNTING

Although it's holiday, I'm busy with some scheduled things. Plan to go holiday with Mum cancelled due to the restart of my driving lesson.

And I hope I will pass this time. Cause if not, Mum will suffer in forking out the money.

Now, I'm doing some job-hunting. I really need a job but a flexible part-time job. Anyone?

2010-03-04T10:18:00.007+08:00

6.30pm baby

I really don't understand why if it's comes to me, you're like that but comes to other people, you're not. But thanks for the day anw.

I don't know whether I should like it or hate it.

Anyway, bonbonboy will be coming home todayy. Say yay! And and, like i told him before he leave, I will be buying a new slipon adidas before he came back, and I did.

Sungguh banggaaa sik saya~!

2010-03-01T20:25:00.004+08:00

SHOPPING WEEEK.

Those are the things we went to get together, except for bonbonboy's shoes cause that was bought by Kakbit.

More things to buy : cotton on pants, long-sleeve, adidas slip-on, necklace, shawl.

I've been a good girl this week to save money that I promised. And I told bonbonboy that I will spend some money in the bank this week before he go for fyp and I will start saving it back, no worry. lol.

Ok got to go home now. Rest welll people !

p.s: gfs, i miss you two.

2010-02-26T20:03:00.007+08:00

GRAB DAN MENANG.

I got vanilla flavour.

bonbonboy got chocz flavour.

We played it at Marina Square and got the Ben & Jerry ice cream for just $2. It's the machine, grab & win below we got it from. It's cool shit! ;) I enjoyed it, baby!

And and, I'm done with exam sayyy yahoooooo to holiday.

2010-02-21T22:06:00.003+08:00

SAME FLAVOUR.

Oh man! I've been picking on that shoe design
.....but Kakbit got it first cause she got the money. *sigh*

Always, I want to got something, other people will get it first. Urgh~! Nah its oke, I'm going to get in 3 more weeks time. Wuuhooooooooooooooooooo~!

p.s: i'm dead for bio, adnur & pharmaco paper!

2010-02-11T13:55:00.002+08:00

What a day today, have to go school for 1-hr condolidation. pfft~!

Ahhh, nevermind. Just golaaa horh. And actly decided to go out with gfs today after buying my heli, but it was cancelled. Cause Mom asked to go Mustafa with her and Abah. So gonna buy the heli with parents. I'm very sorry gfs. Meet u guys up soon after exams otey?

I do miss you two.

I'm not ready to go back kampong, and not ready to sit for paper next week. Sucky!

2010-02-09T22:59:00.002+08:00

I don't know if I want to follow them o not this weekends, cause my mind now is really mess up with exams & those unnecessary thingy. For goodness sake, just turn the month now to march can?.

Mom been talking to me about going on holiday. It supposed to be this week to Genting, but it was cancelled due to no hotel. And it is supposed to be with cousins from maternal's side on March at Penang, but it was cancelled too. Sooo, this holiday she's talking is just fresh new. She been asking me to think of places we should go.

Kay, maybe it's normal news for you guys. But not for me, cause she say it will be only two of us!!!!! Me & mom only, isnt that coolshit? I hope can can.

Weeeeeeehu weehu.

2010-02-08T22:59:00.002+08:00

Hanging with kash, adelene, azri & their group members are fun, they're full of crazy. I like~!

So today, I did go for the workshop although there's no one to accompany me. But it's fun, those people are superb,friendly. They taught me alot, thanks guys. I learnt alot from u all. I hope to go for the workshop again, if i'm free.

Today is really a thank day from me to people. *wink*

2010-02-07T11:53:00.003+08:00

I'm so dissapointed in you.

But whatever it is, I enjoyed yesterday. Window shopping at the flee market & cine. My eyes stay put on many things. Bags, jackets, necklace, shoes many more laaah.

Especially the shoe, aiming to buy it this month. Weeeeeehu~!

p.s: good news, i passed my BCLS theory test. ALHAMDULILLAH!

2010-02-05T22:53:00.002+08:00

I find it stupid, cause I don't know what's my fault but I been punished this way.

It is so kerepek mepekmepek.

2010-02-05T00:51:00.004+08:00

Issit true about what that lady say? That I'm sensitive & cry easily. I don't like that, but what to do. I follow my mom, maybe. Just thanks to God for that.

2010-02-03T19:16:00.004+08:00

I'm still feeling suck cause down with flu & bad cough. Rasanya mau saja saya masokkan tangan saya ke dalam tekak, dan garu-garu deh! ARWGH!

Now, I'm just looking at people training. At least I roughly know what they train on. And BONBONboy trying to do extra steps compared to others, step mana punya breakdance saja itu anak ya. *stick-out tongue* I just love his extra actions, he really love to act out to be different from others. But not too much ok? Lebeh-lebeh kene label pulak! *LOL!*

2 weeks more to go for the first paper.
And when are you free to accompany me to study again? (=

2010-01-31T19:50:00.006+08:00

I'm still reminisce on yesterday.

I'm seriously mad at BONBONboy. He didn't allow me to fight. I know he meant good, he want to prevent futher complication for my leg. But I don't know, I just want to give it a try cause it also a trial. At least, from there, people can tell my mistake etc. & hope I can improve on those.

During the 30mins self-train, I was mad & feeling down. Ak kick padding pon lemah, case taknak tendang. He realised it & told Raddy that I want to, I think.

He smiled, & ask me to start kick properly. So, I was damn nervous. I mean I am that type, comes to a big event, I will feel nervous. Who don't? Tell me! But thanks to Cinonet, Hakkim & others for the advice, teachings, support etc. I really felt very happy after giving it a try.

Thanks for BONBONboy for allowing me to give it a try. And now, I need to get my brain to put all the concentration on studies.

Exams are near & now, I still have not start studying. & now, I'm down with mild fever, flu & bad sore throat. This infected bug been going around my groups. Oh gosh~!

p.s: I miss MR.HELI, extremely need him now.

2010-01-28T23:45:00.002+08:00

You know very well that I hate lies.

2010-01-10T12:29:00.002+08:00

when i saw you standing there
i bout fell out my chair
and when u moved your mouth to speak
i felt the blood go to my feet
now it took time for me to know
what you tried so not to show
but something in my soul just cries
i see the want in your eyes
baby, i'd love you to want me
the way that i want you
the way that it should be
baby, you'd love me to want you
the way that i want to
if you'd only let it be
you told yourself years ago
you'd never let your feelings show
the obligation that you made
for the title that they gave

For you , ILYQ.

2010-01-05T16:45:00.003+08:00

I love you, no matter what. I'm staying put holding on with the promises we made everyday, baby.

If you ask me to leave you, my answer will be no. I'll wait for you here no matter what your decision is going to be. I'm sorry, but I promise I change. And for you, I'll do anything.

ILY,Q.

2009-12-25T07:42:00.004+08:00

I think I'm going to be dead by the end of next week.

Because today I'm going back kampong, then my groups have not been meeting for all the projects, weds to friday will be having camp & with all those cramping up in my head, how am i suppose to study for BIO & NURSINGLAB?

You tell me now how!

Oh shots anw, I watched chipmunks 2 with my family. Its like wuhooooo woaawoaaa ! I rate it 5/5 stars man ! You guys should watch it now, really!

Kay i gottta go & bath now, or that two elderly of mine will start to nag at me.

Sayonara, enjoice people !

2009-12-13T11:48:00.006+08:00

Im EGOISTIC. Very very ego, soooooo do you have problem with that!

You might not know, but only gf Kash know it. Cause we sort of having the same character. She knows what I need/wish from my loves one. No matter how far we are, she still knows me when everytime we share something. She will agree to my saying, & I will agree to her saying.

Thanks gf. (: Now, im missing the gfs. Kash & Kin who else. No one else I miss!

2009-12-06T14:35:00.003+08:00

I think I'm going to lose all. Life is just so crazy with all the downs that I hid.

Until when I can keep all this? Idk. I don't know why I'm trying to be happy when I'm not? Or should i show that? It's just not right to show it, I feel. Cause if I show it, people especially my family will get worried about me.

True sentence from one of the pt.

Pt: From the way you play the chess, I know your character.

Me: Omg! Character? So what's my character?

Pt: You're someone who like to keep your problems to yourself, am i right?

Me: Uhhh..

Pt: That's wrong, you should know that. Maybe you need a diary to write those.

Me: Oh man, that is old style when I used it when I'm in pri.
Pt: *Laughs* Yeah, true. But u need a book for your privacy, problems.
Conversation goes on.

I really enjoyed myself during that attachment in IMH. I really can see myself through them. On the other side, it's really pain to see them in that situation. Cause they don't wish to be that. They made me laugh all the days.

I realised myself smiling, laughing during attachment. They always put my downs aside & made me forget about those. Superb people!

I told mom if I got my diploma, I wish of working there. Mom allowed!

2009-11-02T23:23:00.003+08:00

What goes over Boyfriend, i also don't know(but only God knows). He was super-superly sweet today. He helped me in the gym training as normal. And also in showing me the right techniques again.

I think I did my best for today & i want the bestest as days goes on, insyallah! Kay, so I decided to take fighting side rather than artistic side, Boyfriend also want that for me. No matter what, I will try to train as per normal. He also planned extra training time for me. I hope all this input will be worhty & not to drain. *grinning*

Ergwhhhhh! 2.4 tmrw & I hope best result man! The first timing was superly suck which made me feel so upset.

Dala, gue udah enggak tahu sik mau bual apa. Sudah ngantok deh! Goodnight goodnight.

2009-10-26T19:02:00.006+08:00

Just now, just having crazy-loiloi moments with Boyfriend, Hafiz & Razinah. With the Mcd monopoly. We were like looking around for any drop monopoly coupon. And now in clubroom, listening to Hafiz singing "Isabella". Oh man! He so lucky as God gave him a very nice voice. Seriously he sings like those ahli-ahli nasyid, menenangkan jiwa wek!

I'm supposed to do my work. Razinah is like concentrating in gaming. Wah pianglei, I'm the only person have school work to do, sungguh tak fun people!

Hey hey, wait good news good news! Uncle had went for an operation and now, cousin Adda told me he somehow communicating with people. He's conscious already, syukur alhamdulillah. And thanks to Allah, that you fulfill our prayers.

I just can't wait to go hosp maybe tomm to see his condition.

Ok udah, g buat kerja skola sane-sane. Shoo-shoo!

2009-10-25T17:36:00.003+08:00

Oh, I had a wish to be grant.

I wanted a shoe too, but I think & think kans, Kash udah belik, aku pinjam diye aja lor. *evil laughs*

2009-10-25T16:33:00.010+08:00

Dinner and dance yesterday was rated 4/5. I like the photo-ing, i like the mask. But the only thing i don't like is Boyfriend got a movie voucher as his number was out. My number was just side of him sia! *bang his head*

Kay whatever.

I'll update the photos soon tomm maybe when I got those from Yusoff & Fido.

wearing grandma's specs.

Now, i'm just feeling freaking bored. I did all my tutorials. *puff* Mamee & Abah is heading to hosp again today. I want too cause all cousins are there. I find that visiting my uncle is like a way to help our ties stronger. I could see that, I hope that will be forever not for a moments, Oh God!

Do have some miracles on him, his children are all still young. I know that Uncle are very strong to overcome that. Be strong, Uncle.

Anwanwuut, Grandma was super cute. I lent her vintage specs to take photos.

"Nenek, aten nak pinjam specs nenek. Vintage ah!"
"Ah, amek ah."
*Adda took photo for me*
"Nah nek, dah cukop dah."
"Eh eh, amek la gmbr nenek"

Wah wah wei, bukan main nenek aku! She also want to take photo ahh. Don't play-play!

2009-08-13T10:41:00.003+08:00

Its been alot of this down until I don't know what to do next to resolve all this. People always think that I'm the trouble to everything. Maybe I agree but to certain extent.

And now, I got no energy to do anything to resolve all this again. I'm feeling weak, weak to study, weak to resolve all this, weak to live. I'm trying to fight all this to make ours stay stronger but u're always the one who sitting back, trying to run away from all this by not calling, msging. Whether it's my fault or it's ur fault, I'm the one who have to correct the situation back.

U're very good in acting to make people think u're the innocent & i'm the trouble-maker.

"Sandiwara apa yang kau mainkan, hanya menambahkan kedukaan jiwa."

Sorry, I'm not strong to handle this anymore. I'm very weak & I'm giving up. I'm giving up cause I tried many times to make all this look good & it's not that i don't love you.

I'm totally heart-broken now. I don't feel u're treating me like you do at first. I feel like im a toy to you. Just do whatever you want to do, I'm letting you go. I'm warning you, don't you come back cause I'm not the girl that you want in your life.

I'm just stupid, kental, laziest girl in this world.

2009-07-11T07:07:00.011+08:00

People say I and Nadia looks twin when we wear on our mask. I think because we're Malay, they can only see our eyes and our fringe is at same side. Do we people? Come take a look & judge us.

*Laughs*

without mask

with mask

Ehk, why am I still smiling when using that mask? Idiots gun. Chris say crazy you.

Anyanywoot,

we took pictures together with NP students who worked together with us in Ward 86, paeds. Anyway, I'm missing you guys like ass.

Cony who like to tickle people.

Chris who will joined me in stupid shit jokes, disturbing. And he conned me cause I thought he Singaporean but he's Malaysian actual ly. That is why he could understand me everytime I talked in Malay. The last part that I said to him "Eh daryl, he disturb u a. Bad sia, come ah later we bring him one corner then we beat ahim up. Ok set!"

*Chuckles*

For Adeline, she really look like one of my EN philipines in CGH. For Roy, hiding with him & Nad to let time run.

For Si Tinggi(Shafiq), I wanted to make friends with u but I think you're scared with me(do i look like a Monster?). I realised everytime you saw me & Nad, you will like turn back to other way. WTH! And I like your sepet eyes. Cause it's rare to see Malay people have a sepet eyes.

I have an turtle neck, I think.

Chris: Eh, later put inside 18 magazine.
Me: Ok, malaysia magazine ah.
Chris: Berita Harian.
Me: Ok ah, cool. *LOL*
Thats is whhy Nad get into her laugh.

I think I need a drugs that can make me awake now, is there any? I'm sleepy & tired but I stil want to got for the Silat Pit. I want food to eat people.

*slaps forehead*

Gtg, just smile people. Don't frown.

2009-07-07T22:08:00.003+08:00

Lu apahal mau hantam cakap gue lambat untok 2 hari? Mata lue tu eh kene pakai specs lens tebal-tebal lah. Potek sangat ah lu. Lain kali check dua kali ah,kan da malukan diri lu. Abeh sardin makdin, lu da paisey, lu pandai ah cover paisey lu tu.

Orang potek: Fatin, come here. *stern voice*
Me: Yesh?
Orang potek: You're late for twice, and if you late again your attendance points drop.
Me: *Nods head* [Not really paying attention actually]

Few minutes later, I went to meet this orang potek with no scared feelings. Gue not chole la, gue cakap aper yang benar.

Me: Sorry, what do u mean I'm late for twice? I think only once.
Orang potek: Nono, twice! Go check attendance book.
Me: *I checked many times*
Me: Where got? Only once.
Orang potek: No come i show you.

*searching for the timing:0705*

Me: There's only one.
Orang potek: No, i saw twice.
Me: *Gue bp da up siols*
Orang potek: Eh, just now i saw twice. But anyway, no matter what you're still late for once. You should come in time, although u're late for 5 mins.
Me: *Insert whatever face*

Oii orang potek, for god sake, just say that you're paisey aldy lor. Alamak, not need to cover up la, I'm not small kid gundu head. And for fairness sake, why can't you be fair to me? Why issit only me? HELLO! I didn't mean that Nad should get scolded too, cause I know that day we're late cause I woke up abit late. But Doris remind Me & Nad aldy la. Actually, we're both late for diff day. Nad late for once, but we're lucky cause the lecturer still not arrived to check our attendance & we lied abit.

Haiya, lu really spoiled gue nye day ah. Naseb tadie gue da nak abes shift ah, kalau tak, muke lu gue buat macam ayam dendeng ah.

Another thing, I really learnt something today. Truth lies of yours are out, and I could nearly see your truly colour now. And yesh, I regret of being really true to you. I am really upset when same tragedy happens. But thanks for being with me.

2009-07-04T11:55:00.002+08:00

Just want to make an update about Thursday. Been wanting to update but I'm just too tireed and I'm having my period(I hate this part!). Cramp man!

Oh well, as some of the people out there know that last thursday was my birthday right? And there are bunch of my loves made me feel like a fool. They gang up with Big Sis to surprise me. Very well huh your acting Boyfriend. I fought with him for few minutes because he kept msg-ing someone without giving me reading the msg. And he said his Daddy. And no! He lied, its my Big Sis. And that two gfs of mine, oh well, didn't msg-ed me(the same hist on my secondary days uh!).

Anyanyway, thanks for everything loves. Especially Big Sis, cause she's the Boss of the plan right?

*Laughs*

Thanks gfs for the sandal lace(I really like!). *Kiss the two gfs' cheeks* Thanks Boyfriend for the loving cd, so sweeeet of you. Thanks Big Sis and Bro for the simple nice dress. Thanks 2nd Sis for the birthday money. Thanks Kak Bad and Abg Ramli for the birthday money. Thanks Adek Raiyan for the i-dont-know what picture he draw for me. Thanks Nad for the chocs(Gemok aku!). Thanks Georgina for the shaky study head. Thanks everyone else for the wishes tooooo. Sorry, didn't reply every of the msg cause my ppd budget uh. *shy* I love you all.

Pictures will be update soon when I got every pictures from Big Sis and Gf's hp.

2009-07-01T09:49:00.002+08:00

Boyfriend bought for me that. He bought me last week(I think so). Cause my mp3 spoiled man, padahal kans gue jage itu anak baek-baek loh.

*insert erwgh face*

Mine yellow-yellow. I like that Kube. Because when u listen to any music, the sounds is superb nice. I think the bass o something is uhlaalaaa, you can party-ing around. kay lame. I know, not need to tell.

Done, i need to dress up now or i'll be late for today. No cannot! *winks*

2009-06-30T09:15:00.003+08:00

I don't really find myself a nursing student. I mean other friends of mine is like having their discipline, quiet when teacher talk. But not me, I just laugh to whatever the teacher said to us. Idk why, sick in the mind maybe. I and Nad go to every room(treatment room etc.) to get information. There's alot, especially the drugs. Nad was like wanting to write all the info yesterday but I stopped her.

Me:Nad, kau nak tulis narie semua pe? Takya sua.
Nad:Asal?
Me:Kite sambung besok ke besok-besok. Eh beb, kite ader two wks at paeds dok.
Nad:Ah2 eh, kk best.

*Slaps face*

It's only the first day. And not bad, I'm able to talk with a small malay girl. But the bad is when the NP guy come back from his lunch, she played with that guy. When the guy when missing or unseen by her, she will like come to me and "kak, where's abg?". *Ewrgh*

Annyanyway, I want to carry a baby pls today? I want to feed them milk can. *insert begging face*

Ok, sick in the mind nursing student from NYP is signing off.

p.s: i miss gfs alot!

2009-06-29T09:59:00.002+08:00

This kid have been in my house for 4 days and today is his last day here. Oh sad, I'm not able to wave them goodbye at the Tanah Merah KTM station cause sucks, im having my afternoon shift. Which I really don't like, not only me. My friends too. Right friends?

*Sigh*

Yeah, since I'm having attachment on afternoon shift, I've took my driving lesson today for 2nd time in the morning. I really hate gear 1! *insert erwgh face*

Whatever, but what I've heard from Uncle Tahar that he going to teach me gear 3(i think so!) next lesson which is on 7 july. Wuhooooo~.

I think I gtg now. I need a nap befor going to hospital. Stay good people!

p.s: 3 more days everyone. *Chuckles*

2009-06-25T12:07:00.005+08:00

Oh well done NYP. They extended the vacation period for those people who is not on attachment & blablabla. So it means, Boyfriend, Gf Kash & the rest is having a nice another week of holiday. It's stupid, you know. For us who going attachment to hospital are not extended. Instead of those not attachment, they should take precaution for us who going for attachment.

*HELLO*

Wake up man! We're going attachment at HOSPITAL! The place where we can get easily those H1N1 infection! *slaps forehead* Oh well, damn it. I just don't understand with the people. If we gonna get it there, I'm gonna sue you!

*Laughs*

Ok, macam faham saja aku ini. But im talking serious shit. HOSPITAL! They should extend ours not those idiots who supposed to go school this coming Monday. Erwgh!

On brighter note, Big Sis and Big Bro will be reaching home tonight. I'm the only person who seems inpatient for them to reach here cause I want to see what they bought for me! Hey hey, not only that kay. I superly miss those two Bigs. I cried in a bus fon Tuesday randomly cause missing them so much. *sweetnya*

big sis: Adik, abg wan nak adik ader kat rumah. To help him unpacked his bag.
me: Huh? Why me? You're his wife, sista!*insert confused face*
big sis: He just want you, cause you're adik.
me: Eh? SO!?
big sis: Adik kene tolong jugak. No soso, no soya bean, no whatever.

*Still confused*

kay whatever, just stay out of foolness & goodbye.

2009-06-22T21:22:00.011+08:00

Yesterday, the cousins' picnic was fun right? Though not all the family members come. We did have fun, especially when the soccer part. Whereby I and Adda was screaming our lungs out over the balls. Ohhhhhhhhhhhh Mother became the goalkeeper. Fuhlamak, tak sangka loh mak gue a good ball-catcher! And Father is known as a striker maut, I think that too cause he just strike me from the side to get the ball. Ouch, my arm hurts abah! *Chuckles*

And there was so many sabotage-ing happened although it is not birthday time. The big boy cousin and small cousins are crazy, I guess.

Luckily, Aunty Baah told me that Abg Hafez going to throw me into the sea. He don't care whether I bring extra clothes o not. I count myself as lucky compared to Adda. Cause she been thrown into the sea(which I'm the one who supposed to be thrown!) and bath up with 'tepong'(which I asked Taufiq to do so!). Oh Boyfriend too been sabotaged cause he sabotaged me! *stick-out tongue*

Opps sorry, only few photos taken(all tired&sucky face):

I think I talk enough about yesterday. I'm just so can't get over yesterday which want me to talk more about it, but nah or this post will be like a 1000word composition. *LOL!* Just play the video(just the woof&tong! not the soccer part, hais!).

Puff! I'm tired with the teaching, actually. But no, I would want to bare with it. 8th lesson tmrw! Ahemmm Ahemmmm~!

2009-06-21T13:35:00.006+08:00

[AVOWAL OF A SHOPAHOLIC]

Beware: I will ask one of you to buy for me. *LAUGHS*

asked Big sis to buy at London(don't know she buy o not!)

No, wait! There's more on my list.
Make-ups set, nice scarfs, longsleeves clothes, elmo bag(been years i wanted this!), laces sandal, a blackberry phone(or any hp phone), the green nike slipper!

See, told ya alot more. Can anyone buy for me all this on my birthday? *insert begging face* I hope i can ask some from Mother! *Chuckles*

On brighter side, today is fathers' day! And we(my relatives & I) will be celebrating it at Pasir Ris Park! I can't wait for the few hours games, talkshit, shoutings & etc. *jumping into the air* It's been a long time we had this(few years!) and I kinda miss the kids' days.

HAPPY FATHERS' DAY TO ALL FATHER IN THIS GLOBE !

Ok kids, seeeeee you guys later there!

p.s: don't forget what I want uh!

2009-06-10T16:17:00.010+08:00

ON SUNDAY

2009-06-08T14:36:00.002+08:00

I'm having 2-hours break in the library multi-tasking, finding a journal for one of my project and blogging.

I just want to update what I think and feel now. My family now is having another extra guy which is my brother-in-law, abg wan. Big Sis married to him yesterday. Everything goes nicely and everyone is fatigue now. Me too.

Now, she's married and I got no chance at all to sleep with her when my room air-conditioner having a sucky temperature on that night. Ewwrgh shit! Okay, I left with no one to really pay their fully attention on me. Research shown that if you were to stay with a person in a room for a long period, you will be close to that person. People said it's true but I don't. Cause I'm not close to 2nd sis. I'm close to Big Sis.

Since young, I've been pampered and having attention from Big Sis and Mami but both are not doing those anymore on me. I'm feeeling really down thinking that. Mami no more calling me up to ask where am I, what time coming back home, no more night dating at the coffeeshop when I'm famished, no more accompanying me when I'm doing my late night study, no more shoppings together and all no mores. I know, she is busy and tired with her work. She's getting old and I'm suppose to take care of her now but I don't know why I find myself not independent yet. I really miss the old Mami, honestly.

I'm 19 this year but I don't find myself 19 that is why my family call me the Baby of the family. I like that! They still did call me sometimes though but the treat to me as a Baby is no more. *feeling down* But I still my family!

I find no one is close to me in the blood. Cousins are big now and no hang-outs anymore. No sharing. Sometimes I kept thinking what's the point of us having cousins if we're not close? Sometimes I'm jealous when my friends meet-up with their cousins having some picnics and outings. Where is those thing that we did together, cousins?! Where? I don't mind if you guys say you guys are busy but if you're busy then why you guys are able to meetup with Boyfriends, your other-side cousins, your friends?!

Despite those, I felt lucky. I'm happy to have someone in life now. Thank to God cause he sent me an angel, a happiness. Which is Boyfriend. He became someone who I can cry on, have my happiness, have my fights and else. And Boyfriend also brought me his family who teach me things on our religion, sharing happiness. I got another sister who teach me here and there, who will never fail to help me things and many more.

Actually, all this God doing. Thanks! I love them all.

That is what I feel and thinking of. I'll update Big Sis's wedding photo and video one day. *Giggles*

p.s: I'm feeling happy plus sad.

2009-05-29T11:52:00.002+08:00

Im at home again. For 4 days at home. Not really 4 cause wed I did go to school.

I've been feeling giddy,nausea and I get fatigue easily although doing non-strenuous activities. I don't know why. And Boyfriend really had to force me to clinic ystd. Found out from doc that I got low bp. Wah liao~! The best part is when he shocked me with a question.

Conversation of me and the doctor:
Doctor: What's wrong with u girl?
Me: I don't know why. But I've been feeling giddiness and easily fatigue.
Doctor: Ok come I check your bp.
*Took out my sweater to give my arms to check bp*
Doctor: Girl, you know your bp quiet low. Do you know that?
Me: Nope, the last time I checked is last yr. *LAUGHS*
Doctor: Do you always get this?
Me: Sort of. It's been fewdays. Last few mths back, I did get it and last for few weeks.
Doctor: When is your last menses?
Me: Last few weeks?I think so.
Doctor: Huh!? Cnnot be you're pregnant?!
Me: No!!! I'm not married and I don't have sex before. Oh don't shocked me!
Doctor: Do you exactly rmbr the menses date?
Me: Ok waet, I go checked my hp.
*When out to check Boyfriend's hp(Bf kept track on the date, notme!)*GIGGLES*
Me: It's on 12 may.
Doctor: *LAUGHS* Ok, sorry no.
Me: *Mintak kene rembat je doc nie dalam hati* Thanks ah doc.

So that is the conversation that we had. I went out of the room feeling relieve. He really got the cheeks to laugh. Whathell~! But the doc is very kind compared to other doc I went to before. Ader doctor kerek man!

So now, I need to eat my medicine. I don't really like medicine although i'm studying about it. I don't like to depend on it to heal me.

Noooo medicine pls !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-05-27T16:05:00.007+08:00

I'm in the library. Library that is filled with cold air/temperature. Im doing the project which actually I've started with it at the 2nd week of school. But I don't know why I just can't finish it up. And now, I really need to finish it up by today or my groupmates will fired me. *LAUGHS*

bf say: tak tau malu cium sendiri!

bf say: cinta kite selalu round. Cam bubble!bf say: Promosi darlie terkejut version!!!

this is 'mirror to mirror'

bf say:otak kecik mulut je besar cam alien sesat nk gy macdonal..hahahah!!

Next up is the pharmacology which I decided to do yeterday but I just can't. Something popped-out abruptly which affects my mood in doing things on that day and made me to be a low self-efficacy person. Whereby I let the matter took control over my life. Although that thing looks small matter to people but not me. And thanks to that person. Thanks ah!

I also need to continue study my research methodology which left with 4 more chapters. Which I can't absorb and understand at all. And same goes with Stats. That one aa, more worst sia got to deal with SPSS files.

Oh you know, this part aa, wahliao best lo! You know wat not? Boyfriend say he gonna teach me today aa thE Stats, but aa, after happily-happily playing the webcam effects, he lay his head on the table and uh-huh tadaaa~! snoring away sia! Best tau having a Boyfriend like this! *CHUCKLES* Then ah, he coldcold, he looked like his having cold turkey. Then I pity him. I cover him with my cardigan ah,now I cold sia. He wake up can smilesmile, laughlaugh. *Jingkrengkongkeng*

Muka ada senyyyyoooooooooooooooom ah boy!

2009-05-21T21:24:00.003+08:00

23 years old!?

Kay actually, got this one night ah, I talked with Big Sis and Mami about Big Sis's marriage that drawing near. She get married this year on her age of 25 but for her, she said 24 cause havent reach her birthday. Ok laa, she marrying on 24.

Then I boring-boring ah, I say ah now Big Sis marry then Mami very old already 49. Later by the time I get married, she more old sia. Then she laughed. And she asked when it's my turn. I say I don't know. Cause now I still don't know how to take care of myself, I don't know how to make the right decision mah. You know what she say o not?

" I want you to marry at the age of 23. If Boyfriend never ask to marry on 23, then I marry you with other guy." * insert Mami's evil face* Ok she sounds serious with her face, but I think she joking. She won't force me into any rs with whom I don't have love towards him. But siao aa, 23 ah. Boyfriend said 25 I say I don't want/not sure, nie mau 23. Gila bonar~! *LAUGHS*

I told Boyfriend about that and he was like really. Kept asking if Mami capable of doing that not. And the way he say he need to save more money now like very cute & berkobar! I love him people and I do! Boyfriend for sure got more money then me, cause in his bank he got money. I don't have. 0 cents! I used up all my money to buy my things cause very hard for me to get things from Mami&Abah.

Insyallah ada jodo, takkan kemana yeh. *LOL*

2009-05-17T23:34:00.003+08:00

Boyfriend is out to Kulai to watch the Sijori competition and he will be back home late. I heard alot about them from Mummy. About Khai Hero, about Mutton's winning. I'm very happy for them, and it's cool to hear people win here and there. I want to be like them too but I just can't. Lembek mah~!

Anyway, let's rewind to yesterday. We had some gatherings to give a suprise celebration for Gf Kash. It's like really sweet 19 she had with her scarf which make her more sweet-looking. And she had it for twice from us. Bowlings and cake. I will upload the photos one day when I'm free. There's many of yesterday.

Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo,

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY GF ! (:

2009-05-10T09:23:00.005+08:00

I kept thinking of the sling bag. Oh man! If there is Elmo, I'm gonna be more happy. But sadly, the nicest there is Barney. Barney got all the advantages such as they sell bags, bottle bags, t-shirts, specs, shoes and etc. Actually I do like Barney cause from young I like dinosaurs but I don't know how I can end-up with Elmo during secondary schools. So, now my things are filled with Elmo and Barney.

And I really want to have that Barney sling bag(not those normal sling bag hor!) since there's no Elmo. Thanks ah sellers! *Frowing*

Anw, I planned something to do for today.
! To reorganise the ICA that I'm in-charge of(HS2124)
! To do tutorial 3 for HS2124
! To clean and tidy up my room which really in I-don't-what-the-hell-is-the-mess.
(Mami: Bilek kau eh da mcm kandang kerbau! Da tak rupe bilek anak dara!)
(Me: Maner tak mcm kandang kerbau. Adekkan beranak pat kandang kerbau.Tulah lain kali jgn beranakkan ctu. *Chuckles*)
! To get ready my clothes for tmrw

I think that's all that I planned for today.

Oh anw again, I got many things now lining up my wish list. Anyone want to grant any of my wish? And PDA is one of it(to be used for schools tooo!) But I don't think I can get it. *insert sad face*

2009-05-07T21:32:00.003+08:00

It's been 4th times trying, people. 4TH!

Nemmind, I will not give up. Understand? I will try every ways to get to that way of donation. Fyi, just now I went for blood donation for the 4th time, and it's still unsuccessful!

1stly, I'm not eligible for it cause my weight is only like 43kg. 2ndly, I went again; my weight was acceptable; but they say my veins is 'halus'. 3rd time, I went to CGH during attachment and its totally full. 4th time, which is just now, it's the same reason! VEINS IS 'HALUS'!

Thanks eh!

Anw, Nenek been admitted to hospital yesterday due to something. Heard from cousin adda that she's slimming down and everything. I hope everything will be fine for her, and to Atok tooo. I'll shall visit them one day, but how? My times are all used up for lessons, discussion, projects, and rest. Seee, how packed is my schedule and I still got no time to do revision. Nah heck, maybe I visit her when she discharge or what.

Since I'm updating, Happy advance 9th monthsary(tmrw!)! *smile* I hope through ups and downs, it will makes both of us stronger. We got the feeling of loves and shits from each other and I hope we will be able to go through that together. Insyallah~!
#My love is true, it's a matter of fact. Oh you love me too, it's simple as that. Baby, our love is true..! *winks*

Ok people, I shall get to back to my project. Sayonara~!

2009-05-03T13:13:00.003+08:00

I didn't expect that situation to turn out like this. But I know it's partly my fault cos of not telling you. Sorry to keep you in dark. No intention of doing that to you, but I just want to make it surprise for you two. It's ok, what's done is done. Mostly everyone knowing about it on the same day, yesterday.

Anyway, I want to thanks to Boyfriend's Mummy and Daddy in helping with the explanation and late nights. And thanks to iQin, you know that your book really helps me alot! (: Thanks Boyfriend and Ramos for the listening ear.

Oh, I really miss the days with the guys on Friday. Eat pizza with all the laughings. And yeah, actually I find myself happy, smilings whenever I am with the Silats. *winks*

02062009. Must really get ready for this! MUST~!!!

2009-04-28T18:19:00.002+08:00

I know my weakness. But idk how to strengthen up those weakness.

I find myself with piles of works. Add on with friendships/relationship. Add on with extras. I know other people do experience those too. But I really dont know how to manage it. I did try to arrange everything but those things doesn't work out very well like what I expected. No, I'm not giving up though I feel abit down. Managed time, Alien F!

You can! Insyallah. (:

2009-04-26T11:58:00.004+08:00

I've thought this over again and again.

I've decided to put every Sunday's post as a reminder for my homeworks, ICA, presentations, test and everything that got to do in reminding me. Since Sunday is the end of a week, I've thought of that way. And since, Sunday it's a hard day for me to go out, no outings so it's better for me to put up something right for Sunday. It's better than nothing.*LAUGHS*

Accept not you guys? *rubs chin* Oh no wait, why should I asked you people? It's my blog, my way right? Oh well then. That's what I want to do for Sunday's post so it's my final say. FINAL!

HS2124 TUT PRESENTATION - 27042009
HS2124 ICA DISCUSSION - 27042009
ESSAY FOR COACH - 27042009

2009-04-25T19:35:00.007+08:00

CLUBCRAWL 2009! HIP-HIP-HOORAY!

There's more to go, but that's it for this post.

Anways, something unexpected happened which last long for few mins in the lift few days ago. I know that Boyfriend won't go for those type of girls(HAHA!) but still, I'm totally get jealous over it. Want to know what? It happened infront of me, you know!

Few "Geylang" girls tried to seduce Boyfriend infront of me in the lift. Especially one of the girls who really stand beside,very very near to Boyfriend. She stepped on Boyfriend's leg and "main-main siku". Boyfriend tried to stay a distance from her, but she still "sempet"kan Boyfriend. Gue dekat situ macam nak shout straight to her face "Lu apa hal dengan Boyfriend gue!" Serious! AARRRGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! GUE JEALOUS! IDK WHY!

"First time, I saw u so jealous for 1st time ! I loike!"

2009-04-21T00:09:00.003+08:00

Im freaking tired,I know the rest too.

But yes, I think I really am tired more than the tired I had before. Due to sleeping late on Sunday, woke up at 5am in the morning on Monday for school, having only breakfast in the day(1st time!), had to do the steps, tried to be in good behavior(which I think I don't!), sleepy, piles of school work though it's only the 1st day of school, bursting out on after one thing after another(thanks kash!).

I nearly burst infront of Nadiah & Azhar.*paisey* It's totally my fault, I forget the first steps and I tried to continue, but I can't. I totally-totally forget due to no energy+freaking sleepy. So sorry to Hakkim, and thanks for being so patient.

I'm supposed to sleep now, but I can't. I need to do some works, and I'm stuck with it. So I wrote a little post for today. I need to go.

Goodbye. IMOY.

2009-04-19T11:23:00.012+08:00

ANAK KAMPONG KEMBALI.

can see that ring? it supposed to be toe ring(i think!) but i used it at my finger due to misplace of ring that Mummy bought for me.
*giggles*

Someone command me "Give me $20 every end of a week to put inside your bank & this money you cannot use at all!" *Laughs*

2009-04-08T10:18:00.002+08:00

I've been wanting to upload the pictures that was taken on last friday. You know, the outing with Boyfriend's family. But I'm plain lazy.

So, just go check out Mutton's blog for the photos. My flying kite became flying fish, cool right?

For today, update my wishlist. I need money to buy all these. Where am I supposed to get money when I'm not working/schooling? Errggghhhh!!!!!! Heck.

p.s: thanks.

2009-04-01T17:28:00.003+08:00

Damn it.

Can you guys see the picture below?! Its my face & it got few PIMPLES on right side. It's big like a giant monster on a smooth land. I hate having pimples. I HATE! I HATE! I HATE!

It will sustain there for very long period. Few days before my menses until few days after end of menses. Best or what! And Boyfriend have restricted me from drinking gas water because I will got cramp the day after drinking it. Oh brilliant, thanks lurh pimple!

Anw, I read Mutton's blog. What a coincidence! She was scared by coakcroach ystd night and I was scared by lizard ystd night also. *LAUGHS* At least, for her, she was lucky than mine. She shout & someone is still awake to give her idea. While me, I shout like a Tarzan but no one helped me, they can still continue sleeping. What the hell!

Oh, I have not inform Ain Orh that I have to take off-weekdays from silat & gym training cause Mami being scolding at me for being outside all the time. *Giggles* And you know what is the feeling staying at home without doing nothing? It sucks big-time! While I have to stay at home, Boyfriend have his works at office. What a time!

p.s: But I'm gonna escape on fridays to go kite-ing & Saturday for silat. *Shhhhh!*

2009-03-31T15:10:00.003+08:00

"Uncle, how much this dress?"
"$32"
"Huh?! Expensive horh. But my sis bought it for $25."
"Ok, i give u 25 aa"

So, I did go to Woodlands pasar malam ystd just to get myself the dress. Smagats~!

But dissapointedly, the dress was not really the one I want. But it's ok I still like & love it, cause Boyfriend said he gave the dress as a present. First time jadi counted as "Awwwww sweet la" awak~! Seakan-akan sama dgn dress aku nak, aku nggap aja! *Laughs*

I want white. Act like an angel you know. But Boyfriend says BLACK. Because he have the reasons to choose for me black. AKU MAKAN COMOT AND BERKECAH~!!!! I think eating using the bubble tea straw is cool and brilliant idea but it gonna take a million days to finish the food. Am I right, Mutton? *sticks-out tongue*

I want a big kite, BIGGER than my own body can? Got onot? *grinning*

2009-03-30T13:52:00.013+08:00

continuation.
[part 2: at the changi beach]

the nasi goreng i cooked specially for him.
my 1st cook taus in life!

he tried to do the fixing. But he fix it wrongly.

fierce tak!? *Laughs*

makcik kata muka tebam already!

bby don;t manage to fly the kite. so i tried this time.

& I managed!

see!

then he tried pulak.

& he managed too.

Boyfriend show-off his big solid ass.

study at the side of beach is so peaceful!

he merajok!

at 8pm, its time to land the kite.

slowly the kite down & down.

ok be careful! take land!

fuhh! it land safely!

It was fun cause it's been long time I go kite-ing. And I shouted jumping like a small kid. Macam orang gayat pon ada! *Giggles*

That's all. Maybe I should update a video on me next post whereby I'm able to save the kite from landing. Im proud of it cause Boyfriend can't save it on that spot. *LOL!*

Ok so long. Goiing off to Woodlands in few hours time.

2009-03-29T20:26:00.005+08:00

"Bby, you know the dress that you want to buy?"
"Uh-huh! Why?"
"Kakbit bought aldy! And also the beg yg elmo but hers yg barney"
"Uh wth!"

ERRGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wah sungguh upset banget sik! When I want to get something, surely someone will get the thing first before I do. Why man!? Ok I can't get too upset over this cause I'm getting the things on Monday maybe since Boyfriend say yes to it!

Next thing, do you guys remember on my Friday's post?the photo?Right?
[part 1: celebrating at my house]

i have to wear specs when cutting the onions. *slaps forehead*

birthday boy with the birthday cake.

remember that, bby! *stick-out tongue*

guess who's teeth is this?

then who's teeth this again?

it looks like burger!

Part two will be continue in tommorrow post. Stay tune!

2009-03-27T08:34:00.005+08:00

I really want to go for gym but tooo bad, BIRTHDAY BOY request not to go.
Since it's his birthday, kasi chance siketlaa eehh so I follow what he want. Happy Boyfriend?

I very happy! cos I'm the first to wish him, i know crazy ! *shake ur ass & sound it like uhhhlaaaalaaaa* But I didn't get him any present, honest speaking. You know those expensive things/accesories, I get none for him, as you know Abah don't own factories. *stick-out tongue*

Actually, I made him something that I've never did before in my life for anyone and I did this with love from my heart. Awwwww sweetnya~! We shall see the pictures tmrw or what! I really hope he like it when he see it later. Oh people, guess what? We having picnic! *Giggling* It sounds so like eeee merepeknya for you guys but not for me & him. Boyfriend also promise me to buy for me kite to play together later at the beach! *say yay!* Don't rain please?

Serious talking, it's been a long time I went for some kite-ing. I didn't play it since primary school. No one to accompany me. So this is the time since Boyfriend say 'CAN' to it! Anyone want to join? *Boooo~!*

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY, BOYFRIEND!
Hope you enjoice your day with me later with those things that I'm bringing
specially for you. I hope you like it! *twit-twit*
May all your wishes will be grant one day! May God bless you, the special birthday boy
on your special day today. *smile*
ILOVEYOUSOSOMUCHMUCHMUCH,BBY!
waet, classic kans muke Boyfriend pat atas? Macam anak hindustan~! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
j/k uh-huh.

p.s: Iqin, aper lagie tgu, revenge aa, birthday diye beb! *LOL*

2009-03-25T11:19:00.004+08:00

Take note: Every Tuesday, will be going for gym early than the rest due to Tasawuf class.

"Bby, every tuesday ader taus. So im gg gym cepat every tuesday."
"Yerp I know, Im going with you for that class."
"Are you serious?!"
"Uh-huh! I teman kan you skali,b."

Wah! Boyfriend was so sweet, tu part Alien F senyom lebar siak bile dgr! *Giggling*

So yeah, I did gym with Boyfriend for 2hours. It was really a boom to me cause I really did the 3 sets that was instruct by Boyfriend. Ok, not really I did myself. Boyfriend have to push me & I did pushed myself a bit. Taula, Alien F lembek what!

But don't look down on me! Cause if you do, it means you look down on Allah. If you don't want to look down on someone & you want that person to be good, you have to motivate & pushed that person no matter what. Like how Boyfriend treat to me. Not really Boyfriend did, but dzatnya! Right Boyfriend? *Evil laughs* Kay, someone can help me stop on the dzat thing?! Or else I won't stop forever.

Last for today post, today is My Birthday! Happy Birthday to me! *slap my own face*

You've been punked. It's someone's birthday! Someone! Who?! It's the lady below!

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY KAKBIS! *EHEM* ENJOICE YOUR SPECIAL DAY WITH ALL YOUR SPECIAL ONES! MAY ALL YOUR SPECIAL WISHES COME TRUE!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN, MY DEAR SIS! (:
LOVE YA.
LALALALAAA~!

2009-03-24T09:45:00.003+08:00

I've been studying plus really concentrating on the theory. But, sadly when Boyfriend questioned me, I can't answer mostly all his questions. Boyfriend really get dissapointed. Truly sorry.

I am still trying, Not giving up at all. And I hope I just need to do it once and that's it. Save money, save time. *Wink eyes*

So later, I'm off to gym training. Since a long time I went there. *grin*

2009-03-23T22:45:00.002+08:00

I went for a Tasawuf class. Its very touching at the end of the class. Whereby the Ustaz asked what he asked ystd from Allah. And oh, very useful too! (:

Everyone cried.
"Starting from hari ini, awak semua akan jadi kembeng. Bukan kembeng, tapi awak semua akan jadi lebih lembut dan senang airmata tok mengalir"

I think that dialog from Ustaz is really true. Now, I felt more lembek. People raise abit of their voice on something that is not accpeted by me, my eyes will start to produce watery drops and sticky substance in my nose. *Laughs*

p.s: see, you still don't know whether I'm angry or "kecik-hati".Nevermind, Im tired of explaining my feelings again & again. *sigh*

2009-03-17T22:00:00.002+08:00

results out !

Alhamdulillah the result is acceptable for me but not satisfied enough as what I wanted. But its ok, Im trying harder next.

Anw, Boyfriend will be having 3days-in camp starting from tmrw. I can't go, again! Attachment clash. Errggghhhh!!!!! Its been a long time I have camps since passing out from NCC. sunggoh dissapointed. Ok nevermind. (:

I got to go fetch my papers from a friend now. Sayonara~!

2009-03-14T22:31:00.005+08:00

Mostly mistaken the situations.

Recently, I've been having this sharp pain that poking-poking my head. Actually, it starts off with all those minor flu, cough. Those still remains. Now, the poking pain just another extra add-ups.

The poking part is not a minor one. But major! Not because of stress,relationship,studies or what. I just don't know what cause it to happen. Only God knows why it happen.

Gf Kash: Beb, tkmo stress-stress pasal acap taus

I don't understand what she meant with that. Im not and never stressing myself cause of Boyfriend. Though I missing him right now, I don't have to always worried for him cause I am very sure that he is well taken care by his family there. Compared to me, have to survive my 4 days without Mom. Oh dear gf, don't have to worry. Maybe you don't know what happen, so I just tell you here. Im not stress, Im not having pms or whatever you think. Im having very bad pain up there.Thanks for your concern. *Kiss your cheeks*

I thought of going checkup. I've been having this poking pain at head since months. I might scared that maybe a sign/symptom of something. *slaps forehead* But this pain comes on and off. Should i? I just scared that it's just a waste of money. *giggling*

p.s: didn't went to Silat cause been commanded by Mom and Boyfriend due to my siuations.

2009-03-12T10:13:00.004+08:00

Until now, you still don't know how to differentiate whether I am angry or sad.

I never angry with you no matter what. I'm just sad, not really sad. Malay people said "kecik-hati". This feeeelings plus sad. How bad is my emotional development now, I should say. Fyi, my voice might sound angry, look angry but I'm saddening actually in hidden. I don't get angry on things easily. You should know that by now. But sadly, you don't.

I had to overcome this alone. Although you're with me always. Cos you the one who made all this to happen. But I don't blame you, I know what situation you're in. And I feel keeping those feelings to myself will be more safe. Just don't want to get ourselves into the quarrel business. *grinning*

People around us always thought that I controlled over you. But actually, its the other way round. It's not really controlled. It's more to the sentence of I listen to you more, I follow your waay. But I don't mind it anyway. Im serious about it. As long as you're happy, I will be happy too. It's ok if I always give in. I love see-ing you happy as you are.

p.s: Abg khai da daapat present diye semalam laaaa sehh! Hope awak suke kays. (:

2009-03-09T19:43:00.003+08:00

Blockage at the left and sometimes, at the right. What do you think?

MY NOSE! ERRGGGHHHH!!!!! it is so irritating.

Okay partly it's my fault. Very stubborn. As a student nurse, we're supposed to advise others to eat medicine when they're sick or what. But when I'm sick, I didnt even care to take medicine. I didnt even care about my own health. How to be a good nurse?! *Giggling*

p.s: when you're bored or nothing to do at home, try to iron yr underwear. Someone tried that! *LOL!*

2009-03-04T20:50:00.005+08:00

2 more days.

Though im doing the countdowns to the end of my day in polyclinics, it doesnt mean that i don't like the place. I do like it. I developed more love there. There, i learn alot. Polyclinics learn. Hospital hands-on. Both place acceptable for me. *Rubs chin* But more experience later on. So, I must stay on with full strength.

Actually, I don't really know what Im talking about at the first paragraph. *Giggles* Don't mind me yo! What I know now is that Im done with my worksheets and I have msg-ed my clinical instsructor on the question I own her during the meetings. *Hooray jump*

I should get myself sleep now.

p.s: Boyfriend went panceng with Sarhan which is so unfair. Cause I can't tag along! I hate that I can't i follow you. what to do right. *insert dissapointed face*

2009-02-24T22:59:00.003+08:00

Basic, but it sounds more to final. *pulling hair*

Now, i have to get myself ready. A mini-test for madrasah. A test for my skills. And also, skills for my attachment.

I cannot go to attachment without remmebering any of the skills. You know, human being. Learn for a while, and forget for the whole time unless reading it back. *grinning*

Oh well,

I am the most grateful child out of the rest because Mami spent a lot of money in paying my madrasah fee, so, though a mini-test, still, I need to do the best. And for the other test, Mami spent alot too though it was like only 30bucks plus. I need to do it once and that's it.

p.s: Oh God, give me miracle on my test-day. Thank you.

2009-02-20T23:58:00.004+08:00

Im so gay today!

Gay

Gay\, a. [Compar. Gayer; superl. Gayest.] [F. gai, perhaps fr. OHG. g?hi swift, rapid, G. g["a]h, j["a]h, steep, hasty; or cf. OHG. w?hi beatiful, good. Cf. Jay.]1. Excited with merriment; manifesting sportiveness or delight; inspiring delight; livery; merry.

Can you read that? Don't start to assume as those "gays" but pls assume the gay that wa stated at the meaning above. *Laughs*

Actually, Boyfriend at last able to accompany me to go Geylang. Ahh there you are again. Not the "Geylang" but the Geylang. *Laughing again* And at last, i got the design for the clothes to be used during the very special event of someone. I left with one more design. ONE MORE! Give me one, give me one, give me one more. That advertisement song suddenly playing in my mind right now.

Boyfriend went back to our house for a moment to do his prayers. With this advantages, I asked him to repair with my pc. It have not been used since nearly yrs? I think. The cpu just been crazy, on & off by itself. But when Boyfriend is there, he know how to behave. Wow! Clever pc. Boyfriend did nothing much compared to my effort in remembering the password. *stick-out tongue* Its ok, still I should thank for his effort.

Now, Im stuck infront of the pc. Listening to the old songs that I have downloaded. And the photos. Ancient photos.

2009-02-11T18:51:00.002+08:00

Hs1088 paper tmrw. My preparation for that paper is bad. Im still trying my best to study. Tried my best to concentrate and fit infos into my brain.

I really got very bad memory. I read this and forget that. So i need to repeat again.

So I got many things to study again. On hiatus everyone!

2009-02-09T22:00:00.005+08:00

"B...ader bapok ngah dudok sebelah i..tkle angs diye nye bbual..awww!"

*LAUGHS*

Boyfriend can be that so excited when a bapok sit beside him. He sanggup spent his 5cents of his ppd card to msg me that few seconds ago. Now, Boyfriend talking directly with me through phone. Talked about the bapok's conversation, clothes used. Jin-kreng-kong-keng punya Boyfriend~!

"If I bole join dorg, fuuhhh best nya."

*slaps his head*

And me now, since my brain is stuck. I decided to write about Boyfriend's talk. I got no topic. Malfunctiion of brain. I was dazed, how my friends can understand and fit all the information of our studies into their brain.

I think I better go off now. I still want to pass. So i must cramp all the information as much.

2009-02-08T23:13:00.002+08:00

I've been invited to play Pet Society by my facebook friend.

So, I did. But I've stopped it long ago cause idk how to play. LOL! After that, I discovered everything about it just now. And yes, It got me addicted. But Boyfriend's game is much more better compared to that.

Overall rating for Pet Society is 4/5 stars. Not so bad.

Until Qin Li says .

10! Go study! Pet Society can be played after exams. *Laughs*

So, i better go study now.

p.s: i'll update about adda's chalet other day. S

SAYONARA!

2009-02-07T12:25:00.005+08:00

I just can't stop playing the game Boyfriend gave me. Not only me. Angah too. She watched me played the game and she helped me in watching out for the fish that will eat me. Seronok banget~!

Now, I can't put my whole mind on my studies. I can also happily planned what to do during my holidays after the exam.

Before attachment:

Go cycling with Boyfriend for one day. Boyfriend say 'can'!
Hang around at home. Or meet gfs if they're free.

After attachment:

I thought of going back Malaysia and stay there for weeks.

BUT BUT. I still thinking about it. Planning what to do so that I will get bored during holidays.

Check this out! Adek Raiyan got no reaction when Boyfriend show the shocking video!

Okay-, im off to class ugama & adda's chalet!

2009-02-06T22:07:00.003+08:00

Warning for you guys! From now own, you have to talk louder with me. Other solutions are to use hand language or write those says of yours on a piece of paper. If you want to have an effective communication with me. Because my eardrum soon will burst and I go deaf. Dead-ear. Partly, I should blame my new mp3 for the loud bass. Another part, I should blame myself for turning the volume to the maximum. *slaps my frontal lobe*

I wanted a green one. And a green cover too. But tooooo bad, not my luck. The green is out-of-stock. Which left with blue, silver & black. So, i decided to choose blue as it stands out as the best colour out of the other two.

It's look is imitating Apple ipod type. The busok-thing is "this mp3 no brandlaaa!". So what horh! For goodness sake, I-don't-need-a-bloody-expensive-mp3 neither a-branded-one to listen to music. Ehh no! Who say the mp3 I just bought got no brand!? It does have, people. I have named my own mp3. Robotic Alien! Cool right? I know, I know. Not need to praise me laaaa~! *Evil laugh* Self-praise aku ini.

Hmmm, I think im not finished yet. One more thing. Check the photo below. And spot the similiraties. I didn't expect that the colour and the cartoon is the same. My blue galaxy robot which Mom bought it suits with my mp3 cover. So-the-bangga-laaa-aku! Memang. *clap "wow"*

p.s: oh Boyfriend, i got addicted to the feedingfrenzy game!!!!!

2009-02-05T22:59:00.004+08:00

"SHIT.SHIT.SHIT.SHIT."

last & one more time, SHIT!

My anus now is having the burning sensation due to constipation or maybe not. More to stomach cramp due to red light is here. I kept entering and exit-ing the toilet for few times. And I think my ass now should have the lining of kitchen's toilet bowl. *Exaggerate lorh*

But seriously. My stomach should not have the cramp pain. Ive been restricting myself from drinking gas water except mineral water cause I know red light is near. So, how can i have the pain?!

HOLD ON.

I remember! Ordering the two ass hotdogs with an extra cup of 7-up which is for $3 plus? Ass sials! That is the cause! Arrggghhhh arrggghhhh arrhggghhhh! Heck.

Now, not only about that ass hotdogs. Boyfriend send me a folder named "click it". I simply just follow what he instruct me. In malay, "seperti kerbau dicucok idongnya." But I think, its not my lobang idong now but my ass yang kene cocok. My ass in pain and now with what-the-heck-is-the-folder! *slap Boyfriend's posterior neck hard* I think he just want to send somelike a virus-prank but the prank got its kentalism and add up with tak-menjadi-ok punya situation! He should know why. =.="
"the thing tak process aper-aper?"
"tak... :p"
"hahahahhaa!"

And Boyfriend thinks its funny. Whereby i think it is funny. *clap hands*

2009-02-04T20:46:00.003+08:00

"Zeeng zeng geboooosh pom!"

That was roughly the sound of my mp3 falling when I pull my tudung. *rub chin* It fall from Mami's 2 storey's drawer. It was active last few days. But now, hypoactive. *insert pity face* It cannot be used anymore because the earpiece hole when in deeper compared to original position. It can only be used openly. I can't be listening to music openly when im in public what. Veryvery careless sia Alien F!

I decided to buy another mp3 for myself. Though i have to use my own expenses this time. kene-ikat-perot-sial! Not. Im buying it tmrw. I saw this Apple shuffle going off at $34 for 1gb. Not bad right? I know. But i still need to confirm it whether the brand is Apple shuffle or it is those China's mp3 or whatever. No matter what the brand is, I dont care.

I just need music when I travel. Pity Nad, she have to listen to me talk-talk-talk in the bus to school and home. *Laughs* I assume that her ear is burning. *grinning*

p.s: Mp3 please tmrw! Green one!!

2009-02-03T23:47:00.004+08:00

Though its nearly to 12pm, i just can't close my eyes. I think I need to use scotch-tape & tape my eyess. I dont know why i just can't sleep early nowadays. My eyes are tired and need some rest. But things have going tru my brain which made me awake.

As you know, exams are very near. I had only 3 modules to study this semester but I just start reading psychology. I hate the theories. I dont know how to apply the ape-bende-kau-merepek-setan! *scratch my head* Lucky, there's this wonderwoman who can atleast help me out in making me understand somes, Mutton. Lucky, she studying psych or im gonna have to make an appoinment with psychatrist.

Boyfriend asked me out for sheesha-ing since fewdays ago. Kept asking the same question everyday until my ears get burnt. *exaggerating sial*
"Takpela baby, u go with the rest. I dont want."
"Pls, i want to enjoy with you.You come for sheesha. after that you go where you want"
"Kan tak bagus. i da g sheesha then tak g silat"
"Takpeee, you free before 4 what.then apersalanye g sheesha dulu"
"Hmmmm...oke. but sorry tau,i cannt go silat after that. sheesha pon i g skejap je"

Anyway, the clock now stated 12:15am. Which means Adda is legal!
Happy 18th birthday, cousin! I see you grow up from baby until you're legal now. I hope you achieve what you want in your life for present, future. All the best in everything you do. And always remember, do something with conscious mind ok darling! I love you, Taik Batul! *giggling* See you on saturday at chalet! Can't wait for that. A blast again! Gebooossssh!

p.s: gf kash, just pray nothing will happen to him ok love?

Goodnight goodnight.

2009-02-02T20:35:00.004+08:00

"Baby, you nak tahu why dorg namekan bras basah?"
"Nak nak! Why!!!???"
"Becos org dulu slalu sidai bra-s basah byk-byk kat ctu. Tueee pasal laaa"
"Eh b, mepeeeekkkk!ou nye bontot ayon aa. "
"Btol laaaaa..."

Boyfriend was really trying to convince me that he saying the facts and everything. But i know, he just want to fool me. He said with his full convincing & innocent face. But he failed, for sure. *Laughs* He went on & on with jalan cempedak, jalan bedak, jalan badak, jalan raya, jalan-jalan. And yeah, not to let him down,I just "layan" kan.*stick-out tongue*

That out-of-mind pantat have been out-of-his mind this few days. He starts to be a gangster talking with me. And on the very first day that he started it, I thought that he was been possessed. I did like "bace surah Al-fatihah" and shake my hand infront of him. Like you know, trying to bring out the "whoever" that go into his body. *evil laughs*

"Ehhhh lu! Lu da kencing gua. Lu kata bus smpi cepat, beh ni apa!Lu pikeh klakar!"
"Lu da ape kene! Mintak kene debik pa!"
"Ehh lu aa, jgn byk bebual aa. "
*I did the thing i told before*
"Ehhhh lu da knape! Tutop gua punya muka! Gua tak nmpk bus la!"
"Kurang ajar!!! HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!"

It was fun though. I was like crazy ass caterpillar. Jumping, giggling, punching him and pull,push his arm like small kid. And doing anything that I can, to stop myself from laughing very loud.

I think Boyfriend changed alot over the months. You know why!? He did told me that he is shy to talk to girls. Unless he is very close to a girl, for example a girl name A. Although he close to A, he won't be the same in the way he talked to other girls. Last time, he don't joke around with my gfs. But know, i realised that he did. He no more shy! Qin Li also said that.

"Takpe b, u taknak dgn i. Yelaaa,ader girl mate-mate kan u. Sukee aa diye!"
"HEHEHEHEHEHHEEHEEE"
"U tkmo regret! I scandal dgn qin aa!HMPH!"
"Takpe, i g dgn hazmi. I suro diye panjangkan rambut diye. Bleah"

Qin Li was super shocked listening to Boyfriend's sentence. I love him more everyday!
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeehu~!

Boyfriend's fart-ion get contagious. Spreading to me now. Nice one or what, baby!? *Roll eyes*

2009-01-30T14:37:00.004+08:00

I've been tagged by Rad. So i will post about few days ago tmrw.

Each blogger must post this rules.Each blogger must start with ten random facts about themselves.Bloggers that are tagged need to write about their own blog, ten things and post this rules. Don't forget to leave them comments telling them they have been tagged and are to read your blog.

10 Random Facts about me:-
1. i like spending my money,never think for future.
2. i love green!
3. i love rainbows things.
4. i am 19 this year.
5. i just want to be short cos short is cute. *evil laugh*
6. i have an insane boyfriend
7. i want to be fat. i don't like to be thin like lamp post.
8. i laugh like crazy ass at anything, anywhere.
9. i need my mother though im 19 now.
10. *impt!* i am the shy at the 1st meet. right Ramos?! *roll eyes*

1. Who's the person that tagged you?
Rad!

2. Relationship between you & her?
friend. oh add-up, Boyfriend's scandal. *giggling*

3. Three impressions of her?
crazy, small, light but heavy *e-hem!*

4. If she becomes your enemy, you will?
if only! but it will never happen.

5. What will you say to the person you like very much?
i love your skin colour.

6. Characteristic I like about myself?
happy-go-lucky

7. Characteristic I hate about myself?
fickle-minded.

8. For the person whom you hate, you say?
i'm sorry, i don't hate people.

9. What do people feel about you
qin just chat with me & called me evil woman! *elmo's laugh*

10. Your crush?
Chris brown.

11. Pass this to 10 people:-
1) Adda Cousin
2) Gf Kash
3) Mutton
4) Shirah Darl
5) Qin Li? But she don;t have blog.
6) Ain Kejong Silat
7) Bf Aris
8) Danish
9) Ur sister
10) Anisa, Cousin's cousin

12. If 5 & 7 were together?
cannot be what, Qin Li got bf. toooooooooo bad. :p

13. Who does 5 like?
Ahmad Tarmizi Bin Ismail.

14. What colur does 9 like?
i also don't know. never thought of asking this to her before.

15. Say something bout 8?
his cute, his hot! *jgn kembang dan*

16. Who is 2?
she's my gf who do stupid things with me.

17. Talk about 3
her name is rabiatul adawiyah. she got nice family. she's crazy !!!

18. Who is 10's best friend?
i'm not so sure. sorry.

19. Who's the sexiest among all 10?
Mutton! *kening naik-naik*

20. What colour does 4 like?
pink? muahaha! i ferget.

21. Is 4 single?
nope! she got a bf!

22. Your relationship with 1?
my closest cousin.

23. Are 5 & 6 best friends?
i think so, cause close in silat.

24. 9's surname?
nnoooo surname.

25. 7's nickname?
aris aka anak latiff.

26. Say something to 8
i'm sorryy for not talking with you anymore. just too busy.

27.Say something to help 9
hhhmmmm....idk.

28. Who do I admire?
my hero. *Boyfriend must be jealous by now*

29. Where does 1 live?
eunos rd 5.

30. 10 of them know who you like?
yaaaaaaaaaaaaa....

31. Say something to 6 when you see her
Aiiiiiiiin ! takde pape.... * Laughs*

32. 10's spouse?
dont know.

I'm done ! At Last. Uhlaaaalaaa~! Whatever.

2009-01-26T17:05:00.003+08:00

saturday is the best days amongst this 3 days.

i spent my whole saturday in school for the friendly match. i totally hate my performance cos i can't do this & that though my opponent is tiny. her name is fatin too. oh wait, do you want to know why its the happening day?

"b, tgk2 u nye tojunk kuat jugak se dari your opponent."
"my hero khai ajar. hehs! tkdelaaa, main2 je."
"hmph!"

That makes me really happy for that day! Yes! It's been months im in silat and this is my first time i got praises from Boyfriend. *kembang siket aku* But i dont know, he praise me truly from his heart or just to sedapkan hati aku. *giggling* Another thing that makes my day ends good is those people below.

presenting haikel.
who made me laugh like crazy woman in mrt.

qin, like my lil sister.

oh, Mami called yesterday from Malaysia. Just to ask about my friendly match.

" Ok aa, tapi mepek aa adeknye. Adek takleh sapu seii mi!"
"Adek takleh sapu? Laaa, da besar2 tak tahu camner nak sapu!Lain kali, nak sapu org, bwkla penyapu!"

*She starts to laugh* She being soooo sarcastic towards me. Darah up aja! LOL. Now, im missing her.

Im blank now. Im hungry. Im in bored state.

2009-01-20T12:06:00.002+08:00

"Ten, kau pakai tudung looks like Mak Acap"
"Huh!? Asal plak Mak Acap?!! *Laughing*"
"Btol, maybe bcos aku pernah nmpk mak diye aje.."

I am really thinking about it. Weird Nadia. She the one said those above. Do i? I dont think so right. I'm Mastura's blood daughter. Of course Mummy don't wish to have me as her blood daughter. My character don't suit their family. *Laughs* If I'm Mummy's blood daughter, i won't be able to marry his son. Okay excuse me for that. Tgh mentel siket.

Okay that's not very important. Boyfriend told me that he found a very suitable date which I cannot tell anyone. The secret. *Giggling* He already planned that upon reaching our 25 years old. Funny or what? He seems serious on it while im not. You know, i never serious on planning things. Im very playful. Its his wish, he told me. Boyfriend, if God states that we belong together, your wish will be fulfill. If not, don't be sad over it. *Smiles, you're on the candid camera!*

p.s: bad dreams yesterday night! very bad. i never wish to have it.

2009-01-18T20:39:00.009+08:00

Bruise here and there. Neck sprained & head shot due to wrong landing.

Mami said " this is parts and parcels of becoming a pesilat." And they all laughed.
Oh gawd, that was first time tears rolled down my cheek when i fall. i never cried when i fall. i laugh instead. But idk what happen to me on that day. *bukan gembeng kays*

Next, new lesson. Madrasah. Best man with gf Kash. She look so sweet wearing tudong. Oh girl! I love that day, laughing our ass off. Cousins eehhh bebey? Baik punya. Don't forget the homework! *giggling*

Despite all those tiring moments, we still could enjoy-ed going out with secondary bfs. But sad thing, gf have to leave us early. Or else, she could get the feeling of lepak-ing at the sheesha place. The atmosphere was wow though it makes me giddy. Thanks aa those bfs! Blowing those smokes directly to my face. Luckily, it smells cherry!

[Check those pictures below: Immature kids in me]

he growing taller when he eat more. weird!

step minah remp-it.

this is what they always do to me when im the only girl there. bully!

ex-boyfriend not more. :p

he looks like a she.

the whole people there.

i didnt sheesha., i swear. i just step hold it, and inhale,hold my breathe.
looks real right?

hafiz said we really look like scandal. Muahaha!

muhaimin.

my childhood baby.

he looks like a drunk-mad man, NOT!

i took this! nice right? thank you.

shafiq.

my scandal.

p.s: sorry bfs, i didnt sheesha. I had a bad landing.

2009-01-16T17:44:00.003+08:00

To think back of yesterday, it really makes me bahagia. Yes, im saying the truth. There was somelike reunion with my 2 gfs & danial. And yesterday, gf kash & i make a new friend which danial's friend, Mok. Woah! He's just freaky fun. We get to know only few minustes, but it seems that we know Mok for years. Pity him, he have some problems in the midst of our meeting, but he still able to make us laugh with the games. I want again. Again, again. So we called them our bfs. *Giggling*

Photos will be update soon when i got those from gf kin. But no Mok's face.
Haiya.

MIRACLE NEEDED!
I got a wish that will not able to be fulfill. I want cousins from maternal's side to be here. Migrate to Singapore. And then, i won't feel bored and down. With them, im able to joke, go out anywhere, stays-over. I wont be looked down by them tooooo. I really love them & miss them. Oh God, miracle for this. *insert begging face*

I felt that i don't have cousins from paternal's side but i realised i do. We're close when young, but falling apart when every kids start to grow up.

p.s: bfs & gfs, when is our sentosa day? keep me inform!

2009-01-15T00:03:00.003+08:00

Listen up to this song again. Make a difference btwn last song i post & this.

oh kasihku. -

[warning: this songs is not full! idk why it was uploaded not full!]
so, this song include the background singers by two beautiful girls, Dina & Raddy. oh wait, plus Khai Ramos's voice which trying to echo the background singers with his low tone. you guys might hear to some giggling of mine. *Laughs*

I really love this more compared to the other versions of the song that Boyfriend did. This felt more lively & its like "a live sing". Jangan marah, Boyfriend. *stick-out tongue*

The other part. Can you guys imagine a Baboon F or Alien F took the train on tuesday? It seems like a her first time which is not. The story goes like this. She nearly fall on a handsome indonesian guy's lap when she was about to sit beside him. And there she is, reacting like those matrix moves. *laughing to Nad to cover her paisey-ness* Secondly, she was the only one,confidently standing right infront of the opening door where people from the inner train going out. She just forget that all those people boarding the train should give way for people to go out by standing at the side. *close my face due to shame* Lastly, she nearly fall towards Nadia & nearly kiss her due to the train's handbrake and she sccream "aaaahhhhh!" like no-one's business. *Giggling*

Cardiovascular & Peripheral Vascular System.
Suprisingly & excited-ly, i have to say it here.Hey! i passed my health assessment practical test. Which i thought i would fail it. *cheers*

p.s: i need coleslaw, my steroids. baby so bad! Neyneypoopoooooooooo!

2009-01-12T22:56:00.009+08:00

Here again Alien F restarting what she wrote just now. Been random today.

Okay, so Alien F passed her 'o' though she hate the grade. But she being grateful. At least, she did her best and able to stay on with her unambitious life. Nursing. Thats where my place now. So i got my grade & im able to sign for sponsorship. How? Should she? Confused. Any helpers?

Next, Boyfriend been random too just now. He called me 'baboon' & created the word 'babyboon'. idk what makes him to call me that. I really pity him just cause he have to stay on with my unstabilize behaviour. I jumped, shout, scream, laugh, manja-manja. I am really in an unstable state just now noon. Oh ive been laughing on some small matters too.
"b, u da kenape? gile keeepe?! tak mkn ubat?" *Laughs*

I'm supposed to get more worry for my bio prac tmr & health ass. on wed. But im not that so worry. Maybe i studied. Oh wait that's not enough. I still need to do recap right after finishing my posting which Boyfriend requested. I know you are reading this, baby. Happy? Serious kepe? *You know, I know*

I need to tell you this. Boyfriend been the most romantico. He create his own lyrics and sang it for me with the help of Hafiz Teruna as the guitarist. A present from him to me for our anni. Awwww so sweet! Oh my gawd! Im melting when he sang it to me. *Jangan kembang ehh pakcik* Listening to the song, made me regret for what happen on the day itself. Im sorry, dear. Baby,thanks for staying put with my attitude & everything. C'mon people listen to it. Sorry for the some error in this song.

Oh kasihku- acapnhafiz.MP3 -

Ending with a birthday wish to Shirah. belated cause i post this late. Anway, happy birthday happybirthday to you. Its your 19th. So fast right bebey? Hope you enjoy your life & everything. Love ya bebey! You still in my memories book.

p.s: khai heroku, what a small world! *giggling*

2009-01-09T11:26:00.006+08:00

Its my fault, again and again.

Though my fault is due to you. I wont blame you for that.Im sorry, i have to use the sentence 'i dont know' all over again. Im just tongue-tied & i got this mental blockage when u started to increase the volume of your voice. Which you never done before. Everything goes blank. You are really mad. You are really tired and sick of me cause of each of the words used. Yes, i know. Everyone got its own limit of patience. Now, you burst everything that you want. I dont mind, i am never mad at you at all. I accept everything.

A heartpain to you. A cheater to you. An irritant to you. A self-centered female.
All those never made me hate you,never, though it really a 'heart-attack sentence' to me from you. Will never ever. I promise you that. Im just a no-good-human-being. I admit myself. But what i know, i can only shower you with loves. Only god knows how important you are than the rest. Which i think you will never realise that. Its ok.

Now, everything was clearred-out. But im still not over those. Like i said, it takes time. Im back to normal state, happy-ing, laugh-ing with you. However, in the middle of my two occipital lobes, a pain was developed due to the backfall caused during practice and all this add up more to it. It may just caused slow-working condition of the brain. Or might come to worst brain damage. That's just part of my shit. I wont want a brain damage. I dont want! *Laughs*

baby, i love you only always. _______________ ~

2009-01-04T18:51:00.008+08:00

"shopping time!!!"

guess what i have been doing last few days?

aunty asked to try on the inai, she bought it from Mecca. it turns orange!
oh see, my fingers is spakling!

my new Elmo shoe, i designed.

his my hardcore love.

im trying to show my tummy like those teletubbies did.

qamarul hiding using my tudung. *tongue sticking out*

modelling kepe awak?! *cluck like a hen*

that's my habit, sleeping in the bus.

friday: went out with Boyfriend to vivo. get a bag, shortcakes and a headband for myself. i didn't intend to buy bag but my eyes caught at the bag only. Boyfriend was like "bag..bag...bag only" *giggling*

saturday: went out with Mami,Abah&Aunty to bugis. the last thursday shopping day was postponed to Saturday. woah! everything goes for like $10 due to chinese new years, i think. and i grab a dress, half-cardigan, another-clothes-idk-what-people-call-it & pant. i wanted to get a shoe but those idiots zips stuck in the middle of zipping it. forget it! Mami paid those. I still got many things to grab before the price goes back to normal prices.

sunday:went out with Mami&Aunty geylang to buy things that are necessary for my everyday usage.

can you see that? how much i spend in those 3 days?but Mami was shocked. cos i wanted to find things that are much more cheaper than we found. usually i dont care about the price, but now i really do care.

oh guys, i gtg. i need to study my chinese script. just stay tune!

p.s: im reading the script as if im reading syair. *Laughs*

2009-01-01T10:45:00.004+08:00

"Acu, taknak berak. Nanti acu berak busok!"

You know the small kid, Raiyan. Yeah, he said that. He with those pimples at nearly every parts of his body saying those with his begging face. *Laughs* Oh mine, his cute. He still doesn't know huh that everyone pass motion with foul smell. Want to know what he is doing right now? He showing-off his undergarments with picture of Thomas & Friends and Barney too. Im soooooooo envy. I want undergarment with picture of Elmo!

Enough with that, Alien F!

Today planned to stay at home to finish up assignment which i start to do last 2 wk. And still, not yet finish. Damn! Tmrw have to pass up at 12noon. I got to rush everything. Then in the afternoon, planned with Mami to go Bugis or Chinatown but still not confirmed. I want to do some shopping. Its been a long time i went shopping using Mami's money. *evil face inserted* I hope it confirm & also it will be a blast! Blast, blast and blast!! Thinking of me, make me excited! High in the sky!

Today marked 1january2009! 2009! Time really past very fast. I didn't expect it to be fast. And soon, it gonna be my 2nd year in Nanyang Poly. Can you imagine how fast is that!? Very. So like every year, i've got my own resolution. To study hard, to be gd to everyone & bla blah blao. I don't really fulfill those resolution i've made. But this year, i did! You people should know my resolution & there's no need for me to mention it again here. Oh wait! Today a new year, january. Soon, it gonna be end of the month. Soon, the 'O' level kiddos will get their results. And soon, i got mine too. Oh holy shit! Im not prepared to get it. I really hope this time i get at least D7. That's good enough for me to go for sponsorship.

With sponsorship, i wont be broke like i ever in the middle if month. At least, im able to be more independant. Im able to do anything i wish like shopping, eat non-stop etc. I won't have to ask Mami & Abah money. Uh laaaa laaaaaa~! As if it happen? Will it!

Daaaa laaaaa~!

HAPPY-HAPPY 2009 LOVES,

p.s: the small kid running all over the hz naked. with white look-poster-colour over him.

2008-12-28T14:20:00.007+08:00

i lied. but i'm not a liar bitch. *giggling*

i did promised you guys the bbq pics. but ive out early & been home late, just got no time to update. now i'll be updating this.

[pictures: before transformation]

[pictures: after transformation]
* only some pictures uploaded due to many pictures above.

him: baby, you know what?
me: yeah?
him: when u pakai tudung kans, i feel cam tg jln with budak kecik je sei.
me: *LAUGHS*

why do my appearance never look like im 18years? walking around, was asked by some unknown people what's my age. 18! & they're shocked. some thought im primary school, some says secondary. but i like! at least i don't look old. *evil smile*

ahhhh shit! tmrw is the opening of new term. 2 weeks have gone so fast right infront of me? i dont feel it. i feel nothing! Nothing! i hate this. i was just about to enjoy it & now, i get to know tmrw is monday! oh gosh shit! & yeah, i need to do some shoppings, Mother! oh come on! im no more in uniforms. im ges to school everyday wearing home clothes. i got alot but i wearing scarf now. so, more close-up clothes. please Mother? i love you. now, im missing you.

i should not talk about you. i feel like crying. siaal aa im so emotional! but really, i miss Mother right now. come back sooooon~! if can, now. * grinning*

p.s: i got to finish up all the foods in the fridge before the monster come back or i wont have a taste of it. Muahahaa!

2008-12-26T00:10:00.005+08:00

25082008.

There are just excitement in myself today. Really! I'm transform-ing myself. Mutton & I planned my transformation as a surprise for Boyfriend. He know that I'm transforming. He didn't know that im still in Singapore today. He thought that i really went Malaysia. He can believe me! Oh mine baby!

To make the suprise happening, everyone's in Boyfriend's family helping. Mine too! Credits especially to Mutton. She help to put make-ups on me. As you know, im a cowboy who doesnt wears make-ups. Not only make-ups. There's another thing. Just take a look on the picture later. Its really fun! Cause we have to whisper to each other upon Boyfriend's arrival from cycling with his Daddy. We really look like mice. Very cute! *Laughs* In the midst of it, Boyfriend msg-ed my hp & my hp was not silent! It rings man! Rings! We had our nearly dead-off but escape rescued by Mutton. Her fast hand movement, hit the hp & goes quiet. I really took longer time to get ready compared to Mutton.

There. We made the suprise. Mutton shout 'surprise!!!' when Boyfriend gets into his room. Mummy's idea. I really wanted to laugh looking at Boyfriend's reaction. But was able to controlled. He really look shocked to choked. *giggling* His face like paisey. Goes to me too. The 2nd reaction was he want to punch me! You've been punked, my dearest Baby! *stick-out tongue*

He: B, i tgk u da lebih cam 100 times u usek & btol2 kans tau.
Me: Yela, i still not used to it. Da lame sik tak pakai. :D
Me: B, why u like got no reaction ehh? *LOL!*
He: Nola, 1stly, i tgk u like hazuan's sis tue. I tot she. Pasal u pakai make-up. Then, tgk balek eh makcik nie rupenye.
Me: Wth! Makcik!
He: Agpon, my family there, Nak hug, kiss semua maner leh.

*Both grinning*

Padehal jauh sey my face from Hazuan's sis. She's more fairer. Oh c'mon baby! * LOL*

He's diff today. He kept looking, staring for so long at my face. He makes me shy. Shy! Oh not only him. Mutton too! When she says 'eh perot!'. And there it goes, every eyes looking at my baby-belly. Ah shy! Their daddy too.

Bf's daddy: Ehh nie faten ke? Cam lain gtu. (Not really the exact word, i think.)

Everyone . Suprise!

Oh no the suprise must waet. My apology~! I got to go sleep now. My bed is calling me right now. Anyway, the uploading photos are damn slow. So i can't waet. I hope u guys can hang it there. I'll soon update the photos of my transformation & also the bbq tooo that I've promise you guys last time. See you again in the afternoon!

Happy 18th Birthday to Aminnur Alif. Have a happy & forever life with his new gf. Enjoice!

2008-12-23T12:20:00.004+08:00

only God knows how i feel ystd. Super happy and out of sudden, the hyper feeling just go down the hill tremendously. Wokay, Mami say that i always look strong outside, while my inside is not. Am i? Wookayy maybe at times. HAH!

i missing the boy who gave me this song as the first song when we get to know each other. *Laughs*

forget ystd. (:

p.s: ohhhh kakbit, am i for reaal? *giggling* sorry to trouble you, gf!

2008-12-22T13:31:00.004+08:00

i got old things back. Very old. Thanks to Mami & Abah.

They dig out all my old things from the store room. My bags. My mp3s. My chargers. My story books too. Those things that i've been finding for years. Especially my bags & mp3s. I just need to give a bath to the bags & tada! It become new bag back. Muahaha~! So yes, my niece gave me a hand to wash the bags. Now, my cupboard will be full of different types of bags. Alot! For my mp3, i just need to buy the earpiece & tadah! I got another mp3 that can be used. But my old watch, Mami! I got alot now left few. Sad!

Oh, waet. I will get new radio set which have a look of football on my study table. And and, a new set of cd player. Cd player? Old style eeh! So what?! Its better if i use it rather than keeping it in the store room unused. Or give anyone else. EEEEwwww! Later, i will be busy cleaning up my room & changing placement of the beds,tables all. Nak harapkan Angah. Dust will just cover every corner of this room. Oh i so hate dust!

I read this book. "Petua untuk sentiasa ceria". One chapter talks about colour. So, i check mine. Green. I am hardcore green. "Tenang, pemurah, berperikemanusiaan, kreatif, mengambil berat, banyak idea, pengasih, penyayang" This is what they said about green. I ask Mami whether it really suits me. She say yes. *grinning* Anyone want to know about their fav. color? Anyone?! Come to me, & ask me. :D

p.s: lalala~! Boyfriend so-the-mentel. He want to hug me upon reaching spore.

Eh i have not finish la with this post. Mutton was so boring ystd with me cause Boyfriend was so busy doing the video editing, i think. So Mutton came out with ideas of pantun-ing. Im not good in it. She not good in it but she tried & she improving. Chey cheychey diela! *Laughs*

I got only one for her after she went offline.
here i go. tgh boring can until gila, "kakbis" gila. Kakbis kakbis. LOL!

2008-12-21T13:40:00.003+08:00

You always hurt us with your ways of saying things. Your words that were spit out from your mouth. Don't you realise that? She always praise you. But you don't realise it. You hurt her. Present from God. It's a big sin, sister. Big! Yeah, i ever did hurt before cause of raising my voice. But i did that cos of anger. Not cos of jealousy, unfairness.

Everyone here is playing fair. Only you. YOU GIRL!
Now you saying that she heck care with yr studies. That time when you able to get into polytechnic, you say you don't want! Now you saying that. You say she's unfair towards you. Why you always feel unfair?! Why!? Oh c'mon wake up! Do you need me to give you a tight slap?

Now i don't feel like going wild wild wet. Cause of this. You! ERRGGGHHHH~!
Thanks yeah sis. Keep up with your "good" work.

2008-12-20T22:48:00.005+08:00

Im sorry, truly sorry.
My apology to gf Kash. She been waiting for her blog to be construct by me but im just too busy to do those. Maybe she might think im lying or im just lazy to do for her, but let me correct her. Babygirl, i update my blog in the midst of doing my assignment. When im stuck with my assignment & i got stress out then i will be start typing all this. This is the only place that i can let out my stress. I just can't construct your blog for now cause it might add up stress. For me, if i edit urs, it must the best not worst. So i need plenty of time to do. Hope you understand. (:

Pass that.

Kay so, sat. Sat & sat. Silat time. Nothing much to say. I just got nth much to say & im just lazy to do my assignment. Im having bad headache recently, been few days. Mami kept asking me to swallow paracetamol but i don't really depend on the medicine to heal me. No! At times only, of course. But this time, NO WAY! I just can't swallow 2 paracetamol everyday. Since mostly everyday, my cerebrum been hit by a hammer. * Exaggerate cis*

I know that i don't need to tell you all this. But just tel ah horh. Since nth to talk. :p Anyway, i am really paisey with Mummy ystd, friday lor. Cause she treat us. Im am the shy, not! With aunts & uncles all, im not of course. You should understand why im shy. I think. Ok go! *Laughs* Thanks uncountable times.

[Boyfriend send me those from vietnam. Only those with his face been uploaded.More will be uploaded, insyallah. *giggle*]
Check out Mutton's blog for more.

Im going off now. I need to concentrate more on studies. Damn! Wait. Not later. Cause....
Boyfriend am going webcam-ing with me again. Weeeeeehu Weeeeeeeeeeeehu ~! (: Laaaaala~!

p.s: khai, congrats for ur results! ;)

2008-12-19T11:24:00.010+08:00

this post will be very-wordy. relax back & read it enjoy-ily.
ystd.many words to describe the bbq ystd. in easy words, super enjoyable! SUPER!

Aris & Shaq fetched me right after they fetch gf kash. & we start with fight/quarrels. because IM LATE! *Laughs* Not really im late, my shit make me to be late. I just dont know why everytime i met this guys(my babys) i will have some "love" quarrels with them. Not those enemy quarrels, i mean here. Understand? Yeah good, sooooooo clever la you people!

Gf kash & I had our sweeeeet romantic walking at side of the sea with our slippers off our feets. We had our girls talk & laugh as usual. As we wanted to go up to the land, we had our "padi" time. Best pe! Our feets & slipper was filled with muddy stuffy & we went to washed it at the back of the toilet. Thats it! The time we got disturbed & teased by 3under-aged guys. Eeeeewwwww!
a guy: awak due, kawan kiter laki due kat sane nak no. awak due.
kash: sorrry, we're attached.
I was laughing away. Pity them, been rejected. But serious talking, they really look like at the year of "secondary 1-3" guys.

hey guys. know what? if you guys doing any bbq again next, more FOOOOOOD pls? *giggling* ive been having "game freako" as a remark from everyone at the chalet cause ive been playing games. Play "Red Alert 3" at Azlan's laptop & "Metal Slug" at Boyfriend's psp.

[Bits of the conversation(not really the exact words)]
Hafiz Mt Noh: Ten, nak ikot aku?
Me: I want! Naek motor! Yeahhh!
Hafiz Mt Noh: Takya suda. Aku g dekat jela.
Me:Wth! Tanye aku beh kate takya sudah. HMPH!
*i really want to hop on hafiz's bike*
Azlan: Sial aa aten! Kau pon main game red alert tue! *Laughs* Aku nak tgk bpe lamer kau boleh tahan!
Me: *Laughing loudly* Siak je kau eehh.
Fadz: Tin, kau single pe?
Me: Taklaa. Aku da attached. Why? Watszup?
Fadz: *Silent was what the only thing i heard*

Another part,
Azlan: Ehhh faten ! Sial aa kau, game freak. Nanti satu hari kiter g maen arcade aa!!*Laughing evilly*
Me: *Laugh*Laugh*Laugh* Best what.
Kash: Ten, stop main la. Amek gmbr laaa.
I was ready before them to take photo with all the girls. They're slow funtioning so i continued on playing.

Once again, people called me " Game freak." The last time, the person who call me game freak was Syaheed. Now, them! Maybe they find me weird? You know girls. Girls always with their conversation with other girls. But me, macam laki-laki gtu. Stuck with the guys in the room to play computer games. Quarrel with the guys on the food that was brought into the room. I like to disturb their foods, muching it in my mouth & let it go into my oropharynx & into my stomach. Glurp yummy! Aku macam predator dorg. Especially Azlan's. *eyebrow raised*

my "baby", si aris. *gong*

there are more photos than this. MORE ! but those are stored in Shaq's camera. I'll update soon soooo keep on going to my blog for more photos of ystd's bbq.

p.s: alan, ajar aku maen soccer games. *insert begging face*

Bon voyage.

2008-12-18T15:15:00.007+08:00

zoo day was yesterday. FUN is the only word i can say.

Next.

From ubi to woodland and to airport. Just to spend the few hours with before Boyfriend and other athletes go off to 6-days of Vietnam. So yes, he should be in the plane, resting nicely. Or maybe sleeping with his mucus leaking from one side of his mouth. *giggling*

I see the difference in me today. I don't feel like crying this time compared to the time they went to Bintan. Yes, i did feel like crying when they off to Bintan. Wait! The reason here is not that I sucks or what kay but because i just can't see someone else crying, you see. Which on the day theyy going Bintan, Kakbit starts it. Mussssssssssssst be Kakbitla~!

Sooo, from today until next tuesday, there will be no contact btwn me & Boyfriend. How sad is that! Tooooooooooooo bad faten!

Now, im off to gfs&bfs' bbq, alrighty! Yummmmmmmmmmy babby!

2008-12-14T23:17:00.004+08:00

Hypoactive.

I did only little small talks with Boyfriend this few days. We got no night talks anymore cause im busy with my things in the afternoon & by the night, i will be tired. At times, i feel nothing more to talk with everyone surrounds me. Not only Boyfriend. With girlfriends too. Hypomouth. Everytime i want to talk to anyone, i would only want to hear their voice. *LAUGHS*

Except for my family.

I've becoming lazy towards everything. Everything. I just want to stay silent, lying down in supine position on greenish grass with beautiful & scentful flowers all around me while looking at the full moon with the blinking stars. With Boyfriend? *twit*

No. Alone. I just want to be alone. Alone should be fine with me. I love be alone nowadays. Idk why. Now i want to be alone. But when Boyfriend will be away on thursday, i would want him to be with me. I just got this weird behaviour, you know.

Jogging with Along, my niece and Boyfriend was cancelled. Due to Abang Ramli's treat to pizza at my house. Woah! Sorry baby for that. Pity him cause he had to bring his shoes & things all the way from Woodland to Ubi. *grinning*

I going off. See you again one day, when im free.

p.s: gf kash & kin, when is our sentosa day? im missing you gfs.sorry for neglecting both of you. not really neglect but im busy.

2008-12-10T00:03:00.003+08:00

Imagine that i did 100times for every station with some sprinting & running up? Im exhausted. I really proud of myself. I did one-third of the circle for like 4mins. From the end of ubi to my house. Amazing right?

Kay bukan bangga la. Just sharing with you guys. *giggling*

Do you want to know what? All this stations help to stregthen my upper & lower limb muscles, improve my cardiopulmmonary circulation. Im going tmrw again, inreasing the quantity for every stations.

Wait!!!!!
More exciting stories to tell. Next week is the start of my 2-wk term break! Hooooooray!

Thats all. Goodnight, im tired.

p.s: baby, i want to have a design shoe. *grinning*

2008-12-07T16:57:00.006+08:00

I have to wake up in the morning to do my prayers. Usually, I will go to toilet using my own leg. But today, i need Mami's help to carry me to the toilet. She really carry me like a small child. Whole part of my body in pain & aching. Super. This all is due to the running from mcd to bedok jetty at ecp. Imagine how far we run, people. It was really tired but on the other part, I really enjoyed this. I really break record in my life. All credits to Kakbit & Boyfriend too. Kakbit is my motivator! *giggling*

Do you know why? Because....

She non-stop pushing me. Not push. Motivate! I cant stop running. Every time i wanted to stop & rest, she will be pulling my hand. I was half-dead but Boyfriend was happilyhappily whacking my butt(he do this to motivate me!) & taking video of me & kakbit runnning. Thanks alot Kakbit & Boyfriend again. One day again? I want to go gym too!

In the morning, Kakyan show me what she bought for babyhaney. Its was Elmo. ELMO ! It was big & she bought it for only $12. Whathell! I bought my elmo which is medium size for $30 plus? Shits! On today itself, i bought Elmo . I got 3 sizes of Elmo now. *grinning*

HUAHUAHUA!

so have fun watching the video Boyfriend took ystd. Sorry it cannot be rotated to clockwise.

Im going airport to send Angah's friend. And Angah...

have to treat me to starbuck cause she asked me to accompany her. *wink*

p.s.:kakbit, sorry for the whole thing happens ystd. 13th kay gf?